tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-103760142024-03-07T16:34:28.178+09:00The corner stone Of communism<img src="http://i20.photobucket.com/albums/b228/usndoc49/ff81fbde.jpg" alt="Image hosted by Photobucket.com">
Well as us communist unite to take over the world I mean just provide you with good music. Remember that we all have our 15 mins of fame.Doc ahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08155220941357376343noreply@blogger.comBlogger76125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10376014.post-27054007328056118862010-11-16T17:19:00.004+09:002010-11-16T17:35:12.241+09:00A thought in my mind.Another day passes and yes I know I need to start adding more chapters to this book I call my life. But I really haven't had the ambition too write honestly it's as if my mind is elsewhere, lost confused or just not there. But the one thing I have been thinking about over the past 20-30 minutes as I sit here and listen to the soothing sound of the ambulance idling, is that I owe some thank yous to people. To my family who know who you are so I'm not going to mention any names, Thanks I do mean that sincerely and honestly from the bottom of my heart you guys throughout all the bullshit have stuck by my side no matter what. Came to pick me up when my heart/life was shattered and I went down a path I am not proud to say that I did. Yet throughout all of that I still felt loved, missed and most of all wanted which was something I yearned for more than breathing, or a drink of water. To my close friends; Jesse, Haines, Siv, you guys again proved to me what it is like to have true friends. Jesse when the heart wrenching fighting started you without question were up there to help me and evy get the heck out of dodge with no hesitation or question in your voice. Or to listen when she belittled me about tiny things and I simply needed a voice to vent my frustrations. Haines, when I was in the hospital your face was a sight for sore eyes even with the falling out that you and I had at the time that you were able to put that aside to be there for me and make sure that I was OK and safe. And then in turn help me move and deal with one of the hardest things I have ever been through divorce as you have been down that terrible road yourself. Siv, as always brother the ear that listens and I do appreciate it more than words can describe. <br /><br />So I have made it back to NY and in case I had not posted so I have officially gotten divorced. I have to say that was by far the hardest thing I have ever or will ever go through, as bad as losing a close friend in combat. A thank you to someone new in my life, who know who you are. Thank you for just being you I am honestly taken back by how sweet and understanding you are with how I compare things from then till now and constantly talk about my past which I'm sure has to bore you at points. I can honestly say thank you, you have helped me cross over hurdles in this short time I can sincerely say I never thought I would again. You have helped me heal my heart slowly yes but a start none the less, it is quite a breath of fresh air. So I have gotten that off my chest I feel better time for a smoke. On that note I bid you all farwell and goodnight as I protect the citizens of Greece,N.Y. against themselves.<br />Doc A signing off.<br />P.S.- Evy is doing well and is Fat and sassyDoc ahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08155220941357376343noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10376014.post-9404469687166524252010-08-11T15:00:00.002+09:002010-08-11T15:20:33.349+09:00chapter 3Well I know it has been a while since I had continued on my life book so here goes. We go on forth from may 2002 till we'll say about oh Feb of 2003, this time frame alot happened in my navy time I will say all of which minus minor hiccups was relatively good. So where I left off I do believe was that I had graduated from Field Medical Service school and was off to MCB Quantico for operation bulldog, for those of you who don't know what that is, it is an officer candidate school for the United States Marine Corps. This school takes college graduates or college students who are in there 3-4 year of college and starts and/or finishes that transformation into Marine Corps officers which is pretty cool to watch(now mind you there is more too it than just that but you want to find out more go visit a Marine Corps recruiting office and find out for yourself! I was a lowly little E-1 at the time responsible for over 50 candidates of just above listed individuals. A daunting task you may say for someone with 12 weeks of training and at the ripe age of 18 but I was up for the challenge. We did everything from 5-15 mile force marches to the obstacle course, to the sand pit(fun i might add) to marine corps martial arts you name the physical activity we did it, the typical day started at 0430 when we would muster with our DI's and go over what the game plan was for the day and then go about having a "sick call." We would then go about taking care of the marines on there various day to day activities, now mind you in Quantico, V.A. it was one of the hottest summers in recorded history, and the heat causalities were a dime a dozen, and so were the twisted ankles and various other injuries. The three months that I was there I learned more about being a corpsman than I ever did in school, so come august my time is up and it is on to my next duty station which is where alot of events happened. I checked into NNMC Bethesda on August 16Th 2002 now at the ripe age of 19 and got myself a promotion(which was automatic) to E-2, and I checked into where I was going to be working which just so happened to be Labor and Delivery. I will say it was an interesting transition going from taking care of 19-30 y/o soon to be marines to taking care of babies that I could count there age in hours versus days, months or years. I soon began to learn the ropes as I went along making sure to suck up as much information as I could, because I wanted to be the best I could be at my job. So the work life was going alright minus the retarded uniforms we had to wear and the estrogen count being way to high for it's own good I enjoyed the job. The home life was well something to be lacked in, I lived with a roommate who first off was an E-4 and a shitty one at that and didn't give one crap about keeping OUR room clean along with me. So along comes Mr. Haines one day I see him in passing ( he worked on labor and delivery too) and I ask him do you like your roommate? He says "no" He asked me "do you like your roommate?" I say of course no. So we became roommates, I did start dating Ms. Benkert at the time too who was going to school full time at radford university to study I forget what but the times were gearing up to be better so to speak. Come December of 2002 I go on a much needed Christmas leave to go home see the folks etc etc. I get a phone call from Mr. Haines to say "hey dude just wanted to let you know I am deploying tomorrow on the USNS comfort, so my side of the room will be packed up just wanted to let ya know. " I say OK and off he goes, this is also the time I get my first of 5 tattoos that I currently have, which if you know me you know what it says. Well come February of 2003 we all get told hey FYI your all going to be getting deployed to the USNS comfort in support of Operation Iraqi Freedom, I was excited but nervous at the same time, I would be forward deployed on a ship in a war zone! yes this is what I signed up for but not exactly what I was expecting. So we all get on our aircraft depart and get into baharan where we are to meet up with the ship. I get on board to meet Mr. Haines and this is where I meet my second best friend that came from the service, Mr. Sivengy. Haines and I are standing on the flight deck waiting for our bags to arrive when Siv shows up on board who Haines knows but I don't and blam that is that now I know two people on board this ship, which is a good feat I must say, of a ship with over 800 crew members. We shall continue with the story soon where I will talk about the war, and the memories that still haunt me vaguely today and all the ports that we enjoyed. SO until next time I am outta here.<br />P.S. In local news today I am happy to say I am back in good ol NY working on an ambulance yet again which is always nice and doing what I love to do. <br />Doc A. Signing off.Doc ahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08155220941357376343noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10376014.post-13849544433938450572010-06-27T18:04:00.002+09:002010-06-27T18:16:08.134+09:00Chapter 22002,<br />A year for which I will have to start dividing up my year into months so this is what I am going to do for the rest of the chapters from here on in. This will cover the months of January thru May of 2002. So where to begin I always like to through interludes into things that I see may be fitting for the time. I have graduated boot camp by this point and have moved onto Hospital Corpsman A-school at NTC(Naval Training Center) great lakes. Where I began my time as a corpsman so to speak, a very proud and large group of services members that have been running strong since 1898 and are still running strong today. They consist of 22 Medal of Honor Receiptants as well as several other of the highest military honor to be bestoyed upon one person. Now you ask what is the importance of this particular fact? The answer is simple quite simple actually, we do not do our job for the glory of ones self but for the honor and pride of being able to take care of and be trusted with the nation's sons and daughters, husbands and wives. A task for which although yes large in our group is not handed out to everybody, we will gladly put ourselves in harms way to bring them home. A many of thousands of people today owe there thanks to the tireless and brave work of us hospital corpsman and so I digress. <br /><br />January a cold windy winter in Great Lakes Il and the time is winding down as I progress through the weeks at school, I ask myself where do I want to go with this unique opportunity in life? Where will this take me will I end up with the marines? A many of questions with so few answers yet found. So came February of 2002 and on the 22nd of this month I offically became a U.S. Navy Hospital Corpsman a title which I wore proud, and a well earned week of leave before my next duty station. To where you might ask? Well to none other than Field Medical Service School, a school where they teach corpsman more advanced medical procedures and probably the most important thing for us devil docs how to work and coexist with marines. You sleep like them, you eat like them, you learn everything they can cram into our brains in eight weeks. It was a tiring and trying time but well worth it in the end. I graduated this particular school on May 28th of 2002 with orders to MCB Quantico for what I did not know at this time. <br /><br /><br /> Doc A signing off.Doc ahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08155220941357376343noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10376014.post-55871511091000509452010-06-19T05:30:00.003+09:002010-06-19T05:58:14.143+09:00Chapter 12001-<br />The year that alot of history as we know it was written, the computers were really coming into their own, the PlayStation was a giant among giants, every kid, cat, dog and fish had a cell phone, and I had made a big decision in my life, the time was February and it was a quiet cold winter in Hamlin, N.Y. when I decided that I wanted to serve for the country that I was so proud and honored to be a part of. I had narrowed my choice down to either the Marines, Navy, or Airforce. I was 17 at the time so the parents did have a say in what branch it was that I joined. I had to present my case and present I did, the Air force by far the most dangerous job I wanted to do was be a pararescuemen, these guys are the elite of the Airforce they willing go behind enemy lines to pick up down pilots and crew members and various other cool things. My parents ney'd that one to death, then came the marines now mind you I wanted to have a medical job, and that was my path and nobody was going to tell me otherwise, so I walked into the marines recruiters office and sat down with the Sgt. there and said Sgt. I want to be a marine! The Sgt responded with "well son what is it that you wish to do to become a United States Marine?" "do you want to be a grunt, Motor T operator, or perhaps and aircraft mechanic?" I looked at him with quite a discontent look as these were nothing of the sort that I wanted to do. I stated "no I want to be a medic with the marines and take care of them, I hear that is a pretty honorable job." The Sgt replied " why yes it is, it is one of the hardest jobs of the marine corps, however we do have a rate or as we call it MOS for that." I replied well then how do I go about becoming one." The Sgt replied " As much as I hate to say this son, this is what you need to do." " you need to walk over to the Navy recruiters office next door and tell them you want to be a Hospital Corpsman." I replied " a hospital corpsman?" Sgt replied "yes, the blood angels as they are called. They will go to hell and back to get their marines out of harms way and will stop at nothing even if it means that they do not come home." I replied " well that sounds like my type of job."<br /><br /><br />So off I went, I walked into the Navy recruiters office and did all the talking blah blah blah I want to be a corpsman when can I leave and etc.. Then came the hard part pitching the idea to the parents. I sat down and wrote down all the pro's and con's of me joining the United States Navy. I sat down with my parents and put my cards out on the table and surprisingly they actually went for the idea. The recruiter came over and I got signed up. I left on July 30th of 2001 for bootcamp nervous as nervous can be, I was away from home for the first time since I was born, I was alone, and in a stranger new place where people were going to be yelling and telling me what to do constantly. We started what we call 1-1 day (which means where they can start Physically training you) on my birthday something I learned real quick to keep quiet about. The days came and went and I be the laundry petty officer for our division. We had a umique division we were what they called a triple threat division, meaning that we had band, color guard, and a rifle team. I will say our rifle team was TOP notch to say the least. I played the trumpet so that is how I got to be part of that division. <br /><br />This is about the part where live turned rather interesting, it was a cloudy morning in Wakegan Il and I was sent off by my RDC's(recruit division commander, or Drill instructor) to go get my dress whites tailored because that very next week we were going to be graduating a division. It was 7:25 or so when I was sent on my way over there, a typical quiet morning to say the least. So i spent the better part of the day in there and little did I know what was going on outside of the little space I was standing in. The twin towers had been attacked and fallen, the pentagon had been attacked, a plane went down in Pennsylania somewhere. Chaos/ terror had struck the US and we were in threatcon delta. I left the tailor shop at approximately 1330 or so, started my trip back to the barracks when it hit me, something was missing, I did not know exactly what but something was just not right. I didn't hear any divisions marching around on the grinder or cars cruising by on the streets, there was no air traffic above. It was just all too quiet, so I thought somehow I had missed something along the way and needed to get back to the barracks as quick as my legs would carry me. I got to the front door when I was met by one of the Senior RDC's who didn't particularly like me too much, made me drop and give him 20 pushups while he inspected my uniforms. I got upstairs and I asked our watch " what happened???, Where is everybody" he replied with a there all upstairs grab your shoe shine stuff and get up there quickly. I reported upstairs where I was quickly stopped by one of my RDC's she called me into her office and proceeded to be nice to me (something new trust me) and asked me to sit down as she had some news for me. I was told about the attacks that had happened that morning and that they were going to show a video tape from CNN of the second plane hitting the towers. I didn't believe her until I actually watched that video and the Chaplain came in to see me. See I was a New Yorker, and a Emergency provider in the state, so they thought that I should go home. I chose not too, and instead with a drive like none other proceeded to graduate bootcamp and proceed to Hospital Corpsman A School, now the rest of this story will be told in chapter 2 as it mainly happes in 2002 however I will say that the 2001 year pretty much went off without any issues other than graduation. <br /><br />The big day was upon our division to be done with bootcamp we were set to graduate. There was one big obstacle that we had to get over 9/11 had just happened not but three weeks earlier and America was still bleeding from her wounds and the military was still in it's highest threat con yet to date. Were we going to get to see our families?? Better yet were they going to get to see us march??? The answer to the this question came to us two days before our ceremony, Yes boys and girls the Base CO has decided to let your parents on now mind you they will not be able to tour the base but they will be able to come on and see you all march. So we did our thing and my parents took forever to find but I did end up finding them. The rest is well boring so I am not going to touch on it but from there I literally went across the street to Hospital Corpsman A-school. Which as I stated before will lead us into the 2002 year of my career. <br />Until tomorrow<br />Doc A Signing off!Doc ahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08155220941357376343noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10376014.post-69375273919146179422010-06-06T15:52:00.004+09:002010-06-19T05:30:08.086+09:00A story from the eye of.Well first I must start off with the infamous Foreword. You know the section where it tells about what this here story is going to be about and blah blah blah so here goes. I have decided to write down my memories of war and the stories from the eye of a Hospital Corpsman during my time in Iraq in 2003, 2005-2006. I will keep names from this because well I do not have contact with all of my guys anymore so I do not have their legal permission to use them. I would like to first start off by saying some thanks here and well although I do not have their legal permission I'm pretty sure they would give it too me if I asked. I want to thank my mother and father Camilla and Doug Arthur who have been the most supportive parents as I traveled these rough seas called life. I would like to also thank my best friend from before the service Jeshua Smith, Jesse has also been there though alot of my hiccups in life and although he could have very well left he choose to stay. My other best friend and he is from the service would be none other than HM1 now Marc Sivengy, although our paths have crossed and uncrossed a numerous amount of times, he also has always been there to give me his insite on life and a calm thoughtful perception of what is real. I would not be complete without mentioned Mr Haines, Eric and I have had an interesting friendship to say the least, but he and I have been there through some of the worse times you could imagine and yet we are still friends. So to all of you thank you! You will always hold a place in my heart. I was born on the morning of August 5th 1983 in Ny and well yes this is where my journey had begun little knew what would ensue in the years to come. I grew up a relatively normal life I suppose all things considered, was a rather trouble child who from the start had always seem to have a chip on his shoulder. I came into teenager hood,then came into adulthood and what most would consider an unused path, it was by choice that I decided to join the navy and this is what I am here to write about so this is what if you choose to read you will read. The chapters will be as follows they will start off with 2001 when I joined till 2006 when I departed the navy(active duty that is) and continue onto to the point where I sit today.<br />I hope you enjoy!Doc ahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08155220941357376343noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10376014.post-20212852110846975282010-05-25T16:29:00.002+09:002010-05-25T16:51:11.366+09:00a ship set sail,A ship has set sail with my heart. I have no idea where it will go, and no idea if it will ever return just simply travel until it dies. I have no feeling left just emptiness, have you ever wondered what it would be like to feel nothing at all? Well I can tell you it does exactly feel as it sounds just like nothing. I've gone past the hate, sadness, loneliness to just plain absolutely nothing feeling wise. I rammed my head in the top of the shower last night and should have felt something as I remember doing it but instead I didn't. I just don't even care anymore, I really do wonder if I will ever regain my heart back or if somebody will catch it and bring it back before it gets too far away?? I cannot wait to go home, it is sadly looking like not until july or august time frame sadly but that is ok because well that will give me plenty of time to get ready I suppose. So for now I am going to rewatch the entire NCIS season 1-6 (not all at once). SO i bid you all aldue and good night<div>Doc A signing off.</div>Doc ahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08155220941357376343noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10376014.post-24083294819572695182010-05-19T18:58:00.003+09:002010-05-19T19:14:22.898+09:00The eternal questionSO I sit here at 0300 hours and I ask myself this one unanswered question which I know I will probably never get an answer too. Why holly did you do what you did?? why? I know this is question that will probably eat at me for some time to come, and for that sucks I will have to say but I wish I could get it answered. I know holly doesn't read this post so I don't know why I even bother to write this other than to get it off of my mind. I sit here alone, with my cat in a friend's house miles away from people that care about me like family(nothing against my friend because he does) but I just really want to be done with this, done with the divorce, done with Arizona just done. I want to restart my life and may it be successful and I find somebody who does actually care about who I am and what I do and what I've done. I know this sounds selfish but I am tired of pleasing people by being fake why can't you just accept who I am. I am a wounded vet who although is no longer serving has injuries that will forever haunt me. I highly doubt that anybody out there will ever understand or want to be part of my life. I am ok with that not saying that I necessarily that I want it to be that way but that maybe it has to be that way. I have hurt way to many people, with the demons I hide inside of me I just want to be normal is that possible for me? I cannot sleep as I am plagued by the failure that again has struck my life, wondered what's next I sincerely hope it isn't as bad as the last time. I really just want a woman that supports and loves me for the faults I have and the strengths that I don't and do have. I really crave to just be loved unconditionally like my cat does which is why I am so attached to her because she doesn't care if I yell, taunt or pick on her. I am her owner who feeds her and loves her and she wishes nothing else except for me to be happy and to be her owner. I know i am assosicating a cat to a human here but seriously is there anybody out there that is like that. I think possibly but will I meet them in my lifetime who's to know. So I will sit here again alone in my life as I grow a year older soon. I guess I am done bitching for now, I am going to try to sleep we'll see just how unsuccessful this attempt will be. In other news the VA was overly helpful today and that was quite nice, they gave me money for food, haircut, gas, and various odd's and end's. They are also going to help me pay for some of my bills which are definitely mounting up these days. Well for now I am off to try to sleep with a massive headache and hopefully I have a better day tomorrow. Holly I do hope you have a successful future since I have failed to be a good husband, that you may find someone who will be a better fit for your particular attitude style, I do also hope that you sit down and talk to somebody about your past you need to! Eric, Thank you as always for being there through the good times and the bad always shows how true of a friend you are and I sincerely owe you for what you have already done. Jesse, The friend who although went back to NY has been there through many of my life's ups and downs thank you to you too I do appeicate it and I also owe you my life for many of people envy having friend's such as yourself. I love you like a brother I never had and would do anything for you without question. Jennifer, I know we have grown apart over the years but I do love you! I am not saying this just because I am looking for a rebound, but I am sincerely sorry I left when I did to go to japan(i know i didn't really have a choice) but I really wished that I could gotten to know you more your a sweetheart and I am sorry I let you go. To my parents, man am I lucky to have you guys I know the earlier years in my life were rather trying and sorry for that. But you guys have stuck by my side like none other through all the good times and bad. The stupid decisions I have made and the good ones, I love you guys and I miss ya dearly!!<br />Doc A signing off.<br />P.S.- I have no intentions of hurting myself I will still be here just expressing my feelings so if your concerned relax your feelers I am ok I promise. I have too much life to live and too many people to help still to leave this earth.Doc ahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08155220941357376343noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10376014.post-1241766706981201932010-05-12T09:50:00.002+09:002010-05-12T10:18:37.658+09:00oh it's been a while.Well well well,<br />HMMMMMM so alot has happened since the last time I posted on the ol blog here, a many jobs have come and go. The last one which I still currently hold is at the University of Phoenix(gay job) which I truly hate. I also am looking to try to get back on an ambulance, I am currently married(although working on getting divorce) 3 months. I thought it would work but boy did I get a slap in the face with her. Sigh.... where do I always go wrong, honestly I think I just scare people away with my demons and that they will forever haunt me. So here I sit alone, tormented by thoughts of what can no longer be. I have filed for divorce from super bitch, talking with some old friends and ex g/f who is good to chat with, and an old ritzy friend who my heart has never truly healed from and i'm not sure if I want it too. The evy cat is chilling with me purring away, and I wonder why did my life turn out this way I hurt all the time in my shoulders, my brain aches with past memories, and I seem to push women away as quick as I bring them in except for a very few. I wonder why that is, I suppose it is because of undue stress caused upon me or that I cause upon them. I really wonder what the point of dating is anymore to be quite honest. In other news I have offically decided that I am going to NY for a well needed R&R and I look forward to finally being able to clear my mind and become a civilian. I need that more than I need to breathe. I suppose I have nothing further now, except to say to the ritzy girl HI and I hope we can see each other again I could use a hug.<br />Doc A Signing off.Doc ahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08155220941357376343noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10376014.post-44544026456179874492008-11-23T11:15:00.003+09:002008-11-23T11:21:03.024+09:00a mind full...So I talked with as my mood states "good old ritzy friend" and I got to thinking I wonder why she called me? I hope that she reads this and can provide an answer to it, it also made me wonder what would have happened between us had i not left bethesda when I did would we have stayed together or not. I know most people would say your obsessing over a girl blah blah well maybe I am but i really did care about this girl and well there was something about her that made her different from the rest, one of which being that she is from where i grew up and called home for so long, but just is something that i can't quite think of how to put words too. I remember when i was playing oasis wonderwall on rockband and my roommate asked me when i told him about her putting this on a cd for when i left for oki, you really cared about her didn't ya dude? I said yea and still do she is the one girl I would drop everything for. I guess I end this by saying I really wonder if we were ever meant to be and what are her thoughts on the whole situation to be honest? Well for now i'm going to sit here and ponder.<br />I just need to get this off my chest cause well it's been on my mind all week.<br />Anywho nothing really new and exciting here just decided to start to post a little more regularly, and for the record college is off to a roaring start and frankly I think i'm doing pretty good in it. It is only the first week but i'm maintaining an A average currently between all my classes so I can't complain to overly much. Well for now I'm out of here<br />Doc A Signing off,<br />P.S. to the "ritzy girl" I don't think your truly ritzy but it is rather entertaining to get the good old battle going between us about where we lived and such.Doc ahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08155220941357376343noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10376014.post-79070113629327167412008-11-18T18:22:00.003+09:002008-11-18T18:37:58.067+09:00here i amSo i was talking to good friend tonight on the phone, who still holds a place in me little heart what's left of my heart these days, I am doing well down here and starting school and what not. I figured that i should put a little post up here giving people an update of what is going in my little life. I am persuin a degree in psychology which i hope to long term help out vets and what not but for now i'm going to go do nothing and continue to talk to the ritzy friend on the phone. Also I forgot to add I got a new tattoo on my left calf I don't know if wrote this before so if i did i'm sorry but it says<br />OIF1,3-4<br />"freedom is a price the free will never understand"<br />Doc A Signing offDoc ahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08155220941357376343noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10376014.post-20679694635210510732008-06-10T18:17:00.002+09:002008-06-10T18:21:41.274+09:00The moveWell,<br />Where to begin I guess would be the question at hand here? I have recently moved to arizona as of about oh 2-3 days ago( freaking longest car ride I think i've ever done) 34 hours of drive time. Anywho, I am here with a brother from the service and glad that his wife and him have allowed me to stay here till I can get on my feet. In other news I am single again, unfortunate yes but I think for the better and no i'm not here to shit talk just say this.. It's unfortunate it had to end the way it did but i do believe that it is for the better for both parties involved. I do have a kitty I don't think i've put that into any recent posts. The kitties name is evy she is 1 3/4 year old tortise shell and is my video game buddy and yes she made the 34 hour drive with me. Anywho other than that not a whole lot going on just trying to find a job and such. So for now i'm going to go lie in my bed and just think about random nothingness.<br />Laters<br />Doc ADoc ahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08155220941357376343noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10376014.post-83248418855098492412007-11-12T08:01:00.000+09:002008-12-11T14:49:28.053+09:00a day of thought.<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg4_BBJtK22LRCLDGGqWYtB7x9JESxS8Fj0YNWGGp0HzPnfhN02-c-SZeHzo68nraWwHkfC0bp4ZagJT__2qJuBNRlcWlBMG4YEDlz5h8sXcdAuTNTBXeU5eHk7InpUq73ftERL/s1600-h/l_c8d596c634e673ff1140947d872a1671.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5131726155364537986" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg4_BBJtK22LRCLDGGqWYtB7x9JESxS8Fj0YNWGGp0HzPnfhN02-c-SZeHzo68nraWwHkfC0bp4ZagJT__2qJuBNRlcWlBMG4YEDlz5h8sXcdAuTNTBXeU5eHk7InpUq73ftERL/s320/l_c8d596c634e673ff1140947d872a1671.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div>So here I sit recovering from a recent knee surgery (from being in the service) and yes to some i am the always to be made fun of or joked about and you know what you do that because well i guess it makes you a better person who's to know. But as I sit here on veteran's day 2007 I want to put out a bit of thanks to a couple of people who well weren't alive for me to thank in person, 1) my grandfather (for which my middle name comes from) Cpl. James Arthur 101st Airborne WW2, and 2) my uncle Sgt Louie Ramsey Unknown Unit U.S. Army Vietnam 1971, killed by Booby Trap 1971. I want to say thank you to both of you who although relative #1 didn't die in combat #2 did and for that i will just say thank you for making the ultimate sacrafice so that the ignorant people in this country can make fun of people. I did my time and yes I don't want a thank you cause well I made it back barely but I still made it back. You ask what do you mean barely well i will say look a this picture up top and I will say I was in this. SO i will end with this remember this give thanks to those who fight for your country before you ridicue them.</div><div>Signing off </div><div>Doc A</div><div> </div><div>And to those who decide to say what they will because I left paramedic class, well I have this to say to you and you wonder why nobody wants to date you and your not very well liked by a lot of people because you are very ignorant and full of yourself and well I will hopefully not be there the day you kill somebody with your ignorance.</div>Doc ahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08155220941357376343noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10376014.post-71737309278554075142007-08-08T17:40:00.000+09:002007-08-08T17:47:25.955+09:00the birthdaySo as most who care know I turned a year older recently aug 5th to be exact. It was a different one to say the least mainly because I was home in the US for the first time in five years, and either not in a foreign country, iraq, or flying to iraq. Well the better half said to me when i got home from work what do I want to do? I of course didn't know what to do except well go to bed. Well she aparently made some phone calls and such and got a hold of all my friends and went out and bought me an xbox 360 elite (which i still at this point haven't opened) and told them to meet us at tulley's so I called work and asked if it was cool if i didn't come in till 8 because i didn't have a partner. Well mr. bennetti being a nice guy as he decided well why don't you just come in at 10 instead so that was sweet. Christina finally gets me out the door and such we had to stall for a bit and we show up to the surprise of my buddy jesse, paul and britney(jesse's g/f) sitting there at tulley's well we had a good time and all was marry and such. I pretty much have to say it was by far the best b-day i've ever had and I also must throw in thanks mom for not even bothering to give me a call or anything! Anywho off i go I missed class today cause I over slept so blah to me not sleeping much. So i'll have to make that up but for now i'm outta here.<br />Doc A<br />Signing offDoc ahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08155220941357376343noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10376014.post-28136253634217068962007-07-30T18:02:00.000+09:002008-12-11T14:49:28.252+09:00an interesting twist<a onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgC0M3t1MrLuymtHdEwKZF7CwsIy8gQhyphenhyphen3wZkjWYrB02FX7bfjnJCgumsE8LayuWzasJaKGjhC8fAsyqs3S7pm_Ed1klMevvYCXPYii87NIgSVsSqySc1mfX1_T6sqasPinP6p7/s1600-h/2007-07-18-2043-56_edited.jpg"><img style="margin: 0pt 10px 10px 0pt; float: left; cursor: pointer;" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgC0M3t1MrLuymtHdEwKZF7CwsIy8gQhyphenhyphen3wZkjWYrB02FX7bfjnJCgumsE8LayuWzasJaKGjhC8fAsyqs3S7pm_Ed1klMevvYCXPYii87NIgSVsSqySc1mfX1_T6sqasPinP6p7/s320/2007-07-18-2043-56_edited.jpg" alt="" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5092914220153444226" border="0" /></a><br />So things as you can see haven't been to overly exciting out there I suppose, getting ready to move out of the current apt and into a new apt with the g/f for whom i love a whole heck of a lot, really to be honest can't even begin to put into words. Christina I'm glad that you walked into my life I really am you definitely make everyday worth waking up too as well as an adventure. Thank you.<br /><br />I go home the other day on my normal Wednesday for squad night in good ol hamlin and i see there is a piece of mail from the navy, now my first thought is "oh boy here I go again off to iraq" but I was definitely wrong (it was in a large manila envelope) so i rip the top open and go hmmm that's an award cover thing. I open it up and am completely speechless, I had received a bronze star for my actions during my last tour in iraq a pleasant surprise I must say. So i include it here (above right)for those who wish to read the citation. On that note I suppose I'm going to sit here and enjoy the last hour of pure boredom on 9849 (couch on wheels) ambulance. Laters<br />doc A signing offDoc ahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08155220941357376343noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10376014.post-33063450148244350002007-06-14T02:34:00.000+09:002007-06-14T02:37:26.115+09:00zerozero? hmmm well i enjoy being a zero thanks :) so for whom ever left that comment thanks because it means that i'm the blunt end of all your jokes. Which apparently brings you much joy so please do continue your petty name calling. I'll still be here today and tomorrow regardless.<br />Doc A signing offDoc ahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08155220941357376343noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10376014.post-27437540907688045842007-06-01T15:30:00.001+09:002007-06-01T15:43:07.494+09:00and to respond to the zed comment left on my previous rantWELL WELL i think i know who wrote this and too you. Nice job I have tears flowing from my eyes from the laugh you just gave me and yea hamlin ambulance eh nice try with that. I'll say this in response because I have a feeling I know who this is. If you want to talk shit come to my face because last i checked neither shawn nor rob got laid and that comes straight from the "herpes" girl's <span style="color:#ff6666;"> </span><span style="color:#ffcc33;">(who by the way is absolutely fucking amazing, and if you only knew what you didn't have that she does, and she does have a name too but i'll keep that out for her sake) </span>mouth who by the way doesn't have herpes were 100% sure of that also i want to know can I get "pancakes" with that. BUT needless to say why don't you grow the fuck up and lose oh i'd say about 100 lbs and take that hidious piece of fucking bulldog jewlery out of your ass for a face. Oh i must also say that i really hope that the other 75 employee's you've supposely slept with gave you herpes because sex for a night is great but last i checked herpes lasts a lifetime. AIN'T THAT BUTTA BITCH! and if it isn't this zed person i think it is well i don't feel sorry because well i hope you stop breeding because we have enough ugly and fucking stupid people in society. IF HOWEVER it is somebody else who "thinks there in hamlin" i'm glad to hear that you have fallen into the level that my 3 year old cousin is at, because well it creates for some good comic level for me and I really (i mean it) honestly appeciate your childish comment.Doc ahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08155220941357376343noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10376014.post-16211316265307862592007-05-16T09:53:00.001+09:002007-05-16T09:54:39.552+09:00stupid fucks<p class="MsoNormal">So I work last night Monday the 14<sup>th</sup> of May and I find out from a co-worker that supposedly that I quote unquote have a white supremacy website, although quite ridiculously comical is very not true.<span style=""> </span>If you understood what this site was about then you would maybe know what it is really about.<span style=""> </span>It’s a blog site with a funny ploy on communism (which by the way is a joke between my brother and I) nothing serious.<span style=""> </span>So unfortunally I have to undo the damage that you fucks have done.<span style=""> </span>SO here I sit with a list of what needs to be said.</p> <p class="MsoNormal">1) <b style=""><u><span style="color:red;">NO I DON’T I REPEAT DON’T HAVE A WHITE SUPREMACY WEBSITE!!!!!</span><span style="color: rgb(255, 102, 0);"> </span><o:p></o:p></u></b></p> <p class="MsoNormal">If you can’t understand that then you need to realize that this site is where I can express my feelings and expressions because last I Checked I lived in the <st1:place st="on"><st1:country-region st="on">United States</st1:country-region></st1:place> that has a freedom of expression. ( 1<sup>st</sup> amendment)</p> <p class="MsoNormal">2) I love the fact that you folks involved are so immature that you have to start a rumor mill based on something that apparently you haven’t read into.<span style=""> </span>Also let us not forget that you probably are very insecure with yourself so you feel the need to lash out on somebody else because of your insecurities. (truth hurts huh??) </p> <p class="MsoNormal">3) If you hate me because “ you think that I have a site about blah blah blah” why is it that you don’t approach me instead of being a moron and whispering to your buddies. </p> <p class="MsoNormal">4) So I exit with this note.<span style=""> </span>If you don’t like me go fuck yourself because I didn’t come to <st1:city st="on"><st1:place st="on">Monroe</st1:place></st1:city> to make friends I came there for a job and to help out people. Secondly how bout you people involved in this rumor mill how bout you grow the fuck up and stop being a 12 year old child because last I checked were all adults.<span style=""> </span>Although here I could be assuming that people know how to take civil ways to talk to each other instead of just backstabbing somebody.<span style=""> </span></p> <p class="MsoNormal">5) so I lied I must end on this note,<span style=""> </span>I appreciate the good laugh that you have given me with your childish little games, and also if you feel the need to talk about this go right ahead because I know I’m not going to lose any sleep at all and I will still probably be the same person I was today, tomorrow.</p> <p class="MsoNormal">On that note,</p> <p class="MsoNormal">Doc A signing off.</p><br /><p class="MsoNormal"><br /></p><p class="MsoNormal">P.S. also feel free to comment because this should be comical.<br /></p>Doc ahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08155220941357376343noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10376014.post-38662911206900828722007-04-04T15:40:00.000+09:002007-04-04T15:49:37.060+09:00ever wonder?I have been doing alot of thinking these days and you know what I realized I missed alot of things in my life that well either I lost due to moving around in the military or I just missed in general. So i compiled a list of what I miss or would love to have a second chance at.<br />1) A certain ritzy girl that currently resides in MD although our relationship was short I would say honestly with no hesistation that if you were to say that you wanted us to be together I would drop everything I have here right now and move to where you were with out one second thought and I honestly miss you a whole lot although you were a pain in my butt sometimes I truly loved ya alot and feel that to some extent you still hold a piece of my heart. (if you read this I really wish it doesn't make you run away)<br />2) growing up I miss the not being forced to grow up due to the fact that I was in a foreign country where 200 marines depended upon me to never let them down.<br />3) getting my college degree earlier enough said.<br />4) keeping the friends I lost<br />5) sleep although I consider it overrated still to this day I really do miss the days where I could control when I did and didn't sleep and just for one day I would love to not either be going to class then work, work, work then class, or just having 1000 other things to do.<br /><br />I know it has been a while since i've posted but I gotta be honest I've been down in the dumps and haven't really felt like doing much of anything I must say i've become particularly lonely these days and I feel the only person to blame is me I've pushed everybody away that was important in my life and for that i'm truly sorry. I worked 40 hours a week so it's not like i don't have time for people I guess i'm just depressed is the best way I can put it. Well on this note I'm going to go find someting to do. Oh and in case I forgot I got me a new car well sorta new it's an 04 taurus SE I love it it rides nice is fully loaded and well gets alot better gas mileage than the good ol truck was getting so unfortunally I did have to get rid of the one thing in my life that has always been there through thick and thin. (nothing against friends just well it traveled the entire eastern seaboard with me so) I end this on one last note. I miss the feeling of happiness as i feel my soul slide further away from it.<br />Doc A signing off.Doc ahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08155220941357376343noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10376014.post-82611704488198942132007-02-25T16:44:00.000+09:002007-02-25T16:48:44.345+09:00blahSo here I sit on the ambulance again at werk. Sigh I do live such a pathetic life I realized, I take care of people that don't even care/realize i even exist I go day to day in a whisp like the wind hardly noticed (not that i really want to be overly noticed). I guess I miss a few things hearing I love you from somebody besides the rents, having my own place. Having somebody smile because of my actions not because they have too but because they choose too. I really truly miss those days. And i will end it on that note I desire to want a g/f now and that settles that. I'm off to go wander the 1,000,000 miles of internet land.<br />Doc A signing off.Doc ahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08155220941357376343noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10376014.post-43685773761600773372007-01-30T23:34:00.000+09:002007-01-30T23:36:33.059+09:00and another day passes.Well I suppose I should keep you folks informed of the new coming of me. Well there isn't really anything new. I started my paramedic class last week and yea it's going good I suppose. I work you know crazy hours and to be quite frank I feel lost right now, or that I just want to scream. I don't know why but it just seems I can't focus on much of anything anymore have no interest in anything orther than work and going to class. I guess I just need a vacation or something I don't know but for now i'm off to go do something because I need to get out of my house.Doc ahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08155220941357376343noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10376014.post-83112728468647629292007-01-24T00:19:00.000+09:002007-01-24T00:24:07.721+09:00and the blows just keep comingYou ever get that feeling that you just want to just curl up into a ball and die?? Well today would definitely be on of those days, I get done with work and get in my truck and blam hardly any brakes. Not a big deal but let us not forget that at work I had a little tussle with operations for about 30 mins about the fact that I was still coverage less for my paramedic class this evening. I think I finally have that issue solved. So I get my truck into the shop and find out yea the brakes are bad (no surpise) and then also find out that my wheel bearing on my driver's side yea it's also shot. FUCK! 500 dollars later (thanks dad) and yea definitely just in a quite depressed day wishing and normally i wouldn't say this often if at all anymore, wishing I had a g/f or somebody in my life that I could just get a hug from I really could use one sigh. Ah well move on i suppose take the blow to the gut and charge forward I don't have the time too many people depend on me to not stop to never falter to never slow down and I can't let them down. So for now I try to get some sleep. I will say by the way an excellent song I just listened to is green eyes-coldplay. Anywho<br />Doc A Signing off<br />Wishing I had a female shoulder to cuddle into (one last sigh for the day)Doc ahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08155220941357376343noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10376014.post-1167635237789901592007-01-01T15:53:00.000+09:002007-01-01T16:07:17.800+09:00a year has come and gone.Taking a look back at 2006 alot has come and gone. I've been through some times i'll be soon to never forget. I had better half which I left for what reasons I wish i could truly explain to anybody but well that is unfortunally now last years news. Anywho here I sit at hamlin volunteer ambulance, alone and bored out of my goard volunteering to keep watch on a town that has no idea i'm even here and although rewarding in ways for which most will never understand it's kind of depressing at the same time. I always revert back to asking myself am I really this much of a loser and inevitably the answer to that question seems to always lean towards yes. I truly think I will never know nor do I think i'll start trying to find the one thing right now that would calm me down a woman who could tolerate and deal with me and my craziness. On a different note to those of you out there doing what i was doing this time last year in iraq. Your not forgotten I always keep tabs as best as I can. Onto a different note the new plan of action for this year I guess you could say it's like a Chinese Communist 5 year plan so without further adue. <br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 153, 102);">1) quit smoking this year(although it will take time I'm sure I will succeed in this at some point this year)</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 153, 102);">2) start my college career (23rd jan I will be starting paramedic class and i'm going to blow it out of the water) and that is the end of the story there.</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 153, 102);">3) start researching into the MD field see what it is I should study in before going to medical school to make myself more noticeable to the people who make the yay or ney decision of me getting in.</span><br /><span style="color: rgb(255, 153, 102);">4)get a newer vehicle because well i can't keep affording my truck gas bill every week (ouchy)<br />5) find without doing any work what was zed mentioned about the woman issue up above.<br />6) write more frequently here on my good ol blogging site of the bloggingness.<br />7) establish myself in the workplace of monroe ambulance get the network required to make life easier.<br />8) starting march 1st colin goes back to gym everyday except prob sunday because well i gotta give the body one day of rest a week (some might wonder why wait till march because well that is when i will be eliable for healthcare benefits at work and in case I injure myself I want to be covered.)<br />9.) Save money first and foremost this should be #1 but of course well i know it will be hard with new car,college,food,work, and other expected expenses(video games,dates, etc....)<br /><span style="color: rgb(51, 102, 255);">Well to conclude this evening I will end accordingly to all of you out there may you have a happy new years and may your year be happy and such and if its not well remember this you are the reaper of what you sow. On that note PEACE BITCHES!<br />Doc A (sorry it's just who i am)<br />Signing off.<br /></span></span>Doc ahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08155220941357376343noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10376014.post-1164585711919271462006-11-27T08:55:00.000+09:002006-11-27T09:01:57.940+09:00so yea today fucking suckedWell what a start to a day I could tell it was going to be off to roaring bad start. I woke up later then I wanted too which of course pushed everything back for me getting to work when I wanted too. Then I get to work and yea basically have my entire shift fucked over cause well poor planning on the management side of the house glad to see people almost attempt to use there fucking brain. I have to ask on that note how some people are exceptions to the rules well others are under a fucking microscope? I don't fucking know but it really urks me and just makes me want to go WHAT THE FUCKING HELL!!!! then my day well the morning was alright didn't do anything. Had in my opinion a paramedic that frankly i really wish i didn't have to work with again because well he was just a plain prick. Then I get my day all screwed up in the afternoon by the operations chief because well his management staff did another fucking wonderful job of screwing my shift up. So i finally got on with a good paramedic who i do truly enjoy working with. Which made the day somewhat better I suppose I just want this "training" and see how i put the quotes there to be over with. because honestly there method of training is ludacris and stupid in my opinion do i have a way to fix it. The answer to that question would be no but still something needs to be done. The only redeeming factor is that I get paid for other people idiotiacy regardless. Thank god for that. On that note i'm fucking done. I'm going to drink a beer and relax.Doc ahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08155220941357376343noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10376014.post-1162791251325469702006-11-06T14:19:00.000+09:002006-11-06T14:34:11.336+09:00well then<span style="color: rgb(255, 153, 102);"><span style="font-family: courier new;"><span style="font-family: courier new;"><span style="font-family: georgia;"></span></span><span style="font-family: trebuchet ms;">well here i sit in my "room" of sorts if you want to call it that. it's really the basement in the house. Which in the grand scheme of things isn't bad because it's downstairs and well i can be by myself without interuptions which is nice. I'm back home in the good ol ny and it's nice running ems with hamlin. I start my new job tomorrow at monroe ambulance looking forward to that other than what is already starting to happen to my body of just not sleeping again. I'm on the meat market(single) as people call it these days and honestly am not really rushing into anything as of the moment just till i get my head screwed on straight since I know these next few months will be rather interesting with the job and school and such starting really soon. There is one thing on my mind that I do need to get off my chest that's well been bothering me for a while and it needs to be stopped. How is it that somebody can just as quick as they were something in your life just fade out to nothing now some people may ask who is this person well they know who they are and if you assume that your the person well your just making an ass out of yourself so don't even think that. I've decided to just be the quiet guy that everybody just breezes by without noticing to overly much and honestly I kind of like it. There are certain people how ever with my new stance that feel as if i'm threathening to them and I have to honestly ask a) how in the fuck can you think that?? and b)grow the fuck up just because i'm not talking to you doesn't mean that I don't like you as a friend maybe I just don't feel like talking and honestly I don't have to have a reason to not talk to you other than just I don't feel like it. On that note what else is a going on well this whole joke of the election season I find it quite comical how all these so called politicians slander each other and then want us to vote for them. why in god's name would i want to vote for somebody who can't tell me what they really want to do with my state if elected and b have nothing better to do than waste 40 of my seconds with a commerical that slanders there opponent. I honestly say who gives a fuck if your good at your job which some are and some aren't then you shouldn't need to say anything other than hey i'm running for this office and this is my party affiliation. But i'm just another person in society who's voice isn't big enough to matter and I definitely don't have enough cash to flash to tell them to shut the fuck up so I suppose i'll just sit in my little town and grumble at all the idiots we elect these days and call our leaders. On another note more or less on this topic let me devulge into america as a whole there is one thing that reared it's ugly head quite nicely while I was in the service, and that being just how ignorant America really is and how much we take things for granted. I really wish that people could see how the other countries are run or how our country is truly run and then maybe just maybe they would pull there head out of there ass and realize that they can have a say. BUT NOOOO instead everybody and there grandmother would rather just bitch about how bad everything is instead of doing something about it. I suppose for this evening I am done ranting but sometimes I really wish that killing stupid and useless people was legal. My list would include the entire state of md and nj and well va and hmm iraq and where else parts of the city of rochester and parts of nyc. Now for you fucks out there that are reading this and going OH MY GOD THIS GUY IS GOING TO KILL ALL THESE INNOCENT PEOPLE!!!! open your fucking eyes and realize that this is just me typing i have no REAL intent of killing anybody. just me bitching so if you don't like that well get the fuck off my rant and go bitch to somebody who cares.<br />Anywho i'm outta here for the evening.<br />Formally known as Doc A signing off,<br />P.S. in case i forgot to mention it I'm no longer in the U.S. Navy<br /></span></span></span>Doc ahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08155220941357376343noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10376014.post-1157079230340962032006-09-01T11:50:00.000+09:002006-09-01T11:53:50.356+09:00well it's definitely been a REALLY long timeWell what to talk about?? HMMMMM well i guess i could start with the tidbits of good news I am no longer active duty in the U.S. Navy and honestly it feels kind of weird to not be but i'm glad i'm not, the other tidbit of good news I finally got my NYS EMT-D card so i'm certified nationally as well as in the state of ny, which is sweet. On the unfortunate bad news side of the house I lost my love felicia and honestly if she was to ask me to take her back i would most definitely say yes in a heart beat, is that probably the best thing for both of us to do I couldn't honestly answer that but I still love her with all my heart and it's hard to even be away from her. But that's my issue so i will leave the book sealed for only her's and my eyes. SO for now i'm going to sign off.<br />Doc A outta here back in nyDoc ahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/08155220941357376343noreply@blogger.com0