The corner stone Of communism

A thought in my mind.

2010-11-16T17:19:00.004+09:00

Another day passes and yes I know I need to start adding more chapters to this book I call my life. But I really haven't had the ambition too write honestly it's as if my mind is elsewhere, lost confused or just not there. But the one thing I have been thinking about over the past 20-30 minutes as I sit here and listen to the soothing sound of the ambulance idling, is that I owe some thank yous to people. To my family who know who you are so I'm not going to mention any names, Thanks I do mean that sincerely and honestly from the bottom of my heart you guys throughout all the bullshit have stuck by my side no matter what. Came to pick me up when my heart/life was shattered and I went down a path I am not proud to say that I did. Yet throughout all of that I still felt loved, missed and most of all wanted which was something I yearned for more than breathing, or a drink of water. To my close friends; Jesse, Haines, Siv, you guys again proved to me what it is like to have true friends. Jesse when the heart wrenching fighting started you without question were up there to help me and evy get the heck out of dodge with no hesitation or question in your voice. Or to listen when she belittled me about tiny things and I simply needed a voice to vent my frustrations. Haines, when I was in the hospital your face was a sight for sore eyes even with the falling out that you and I had at the time that you were able to put that aside to be there for me and make sure that I was OK and safe. And then in turn help me move and deal with one of the hardest things I have ever been through divorce as you have been down that terrible road yourself. Siv, as always brother the ear that listens and I do appreciate it more than words can describe.

So I have made it back to NY and in case I had not posted so I have officially gotten divorced. I have to say that was by far the hardest thing I have ever or will ever go through, as bad as losing a close friend in combat. A thank you to someone new in my life, who know who you are. Thank you for just being you I am honestly taken back by how sweet and understanding you are with how I compare things from then till now and constantly talk about my past which I'm sure has to bore you at points. I can honestly say thank you, you have helped me cross over hurdles in this short time I can sincerely say I never thought I would again. You have helped me heal my heart slowly yes but a start none the less, it is quite a breath of fresh air. So I have gotten that off my chest I feel better time for a smoke. On that note I bid you all farwell and goodnight as I protect the citizens of Greece,N.Y. against themselves.
Doc A signing off.
P.S.- Evy is doing well and is Fat and sassy

chapter 3

2010-08-11T15:00:00.002+09:00

Well I know it has been a while since I had continued on my life book so here goes. We go on forth from may 2002 till we'll say about oh Feb of 2003, this time frame alot happened in my navy time I will say all of which minus minor hiccups was relatively good. So where I left off I do believe was that I had graduated from Field Medical Service school and was off to MCB Quantico for operation bulldog, for those of you who don't know what that is, it is an officer candidate school for the United States Marine Corps. This school takes college graduates or college students who are in there 3-4 year of college and starts and/or finishes that transformation into Marine Corps officers which is pretty cool to watch(now mind you there is more too it than just that but you want to find out more go visit a Marine Corps recruiting office and find out for yourself! I was a lowly little E-1 at the time responsible for over 50 candidates of just above listed individuals. A daunting task you may say for someone with 12 weeks of training and at the ripe age of 18 but I was up for the challenge. We did everything from 5-15 mile force marches to the obstacle course, to the sand pit(fun i might add) to marine corps martial arts you name the physical activity we did it, the typical day started at 0430 when we would muster with our DI's and go over what the game plan was for the day and then go about having a "sick call." We would then go about taking care of the marines on there various day to day activities, now mind you in Quantico, V.A. it was one of the hottest summers in recorded history, and the heat causalities were a dime a dozen, and so were the twisted ankles and various other injuries. The three months that I was there I learned more about being a corpsman than I ever did in school, so come august my time is up and it is on to my next duty station which is where alot of events happened. I checked into NNMC Bethesda on August 16Th 2002 now at the ripe age of 19 and got myself a promotion(which was automatic) to E-2, and I checked into where I was going to be working which just so happened to be Labor and Delivery. I will say it was an interesting transition going from taking care of 19-30 y/o soon to be marines to taking care of babies that I could count there age in hours versus days, months or years. I soon began to learn the ropes as I went along making sure to suck up as much information as I could, because I wanted to be the best I could be at my job. So the work life was going alright minus the retarded uniforms we had to wear and the estrogen count being way to high for it's own good I enjoyed the job. The home life was well something to be lacked in, I lived with a roommate who first off was an E-4 and a shitty one at that and didn't give one crap about keeping OUR room clean along with me. So along comes Mr. Haines one day I see him in passing ( he worked on labor and delivery too) and I ask him do you like your roommate? He says "no" He asked me "do you like your roommate?" I say of course no. So we became roommates, I did start dating Ms. Benkert at the time too who was going to school full time at radford university to study I forget what but the times were gearing up to be better so to speak. Come December of 2002 I go on a much needed Christmas leave to go home see the folks etc etc. I get a phone call from Mr. Haines to say "hey dude just wanted to let you know I am deploying tomorrow on the USNS comfort, so my side of the room will be packed up just wanted to let ya know. " I say OK and off he goes, this is also the time I get my first of 5 tattoos that I currently have, which if you know me you know what it says. Well come February of 2003 we all get told hey FYI your all going to be getting deployed to the USNS comfort in support of Operation Iraqi Freedom, I was excited but nervous at the same time, I would be forward deployed on a ship in a war zone! yes this is what I signed up for but not exactly what I was expecting. So we all get on our aircraft depart and get into baharan where we are to meet up with the ship. I get on board to meet Mr. Haines and this is where I meet my second best friend that came from the service, Mr. Sivengy. Haines and I are standing on the flight deck waiting for our bags to arrive when Siv shows up on board who Haines knows but I don't and blam that is that now I know two people on board this ship, which is a good feat I must say, of a ship with over 800 crew members. We shall continue with the story soon where I will talk about the war, and the memories that still haunt me vaguely today and all the ports that we enjoyed. SO until next time I am outta here.
P.S. In local news today I am happy to say I am back in good ol NY working on an ambulance yet again which is always nice and doing what I love to do.
Doc A. Signing off.

Chapter 2

2010-06-27T18:04:00.002+09:00

2002,
A year for which I will have to start dividing up my year into months so this is what I am going to do for the rest of the chapters from here on in. This will cover the months of January thru May of 2002. So where to begin I always like to through interludes into things that I see may be fitting for the time. I have graduated boot camp by this point and have moved onto Hospital Corpsman A-school at NTC(Naval Training Center) great lakes. Where I began my time as a corpsman so to speak, a very proud and large group of services members that have been running strong since 1898 and are still running strong today. They consist of 22 Medal of Honor Receiptants as well as several other of the highest military honor to be bestoyed upon one person. Now you ask what is the importance of this particular fact? The answer is simple quite simple actually, we do not do our job for the glory of ones self but for the honor and pride of being able to take care of and be trusted with the nation's sons and daughters, husbands and wives. A task for which although yes large in our group is not handed out to everybody, we will gladly put ourselves in harms way to bring them home. A many of thousands of people today owe there thanks to the tireless and brave work of us hospital corpsman and so I digress.

January a cold windy winter in Great Lakes Il and the time is winding down as I progress through the weeks at school, I ask myself where do I want to go with this unique opportunity in life? Where will this take me will I end up with the marines? A many of questions with so few answers yet found. So came February of 2002 and on the 22nd of this month I offically became a U.S. Navy Hospital Corpsman a title which I wore proud, and a well earned week of leave before my next duty station. To where you might ask? Well to none other than Field Medical Service School, a school where they teach corpsman more advanced medical procedures and probably the most important thing for us devil docs how to work and coexist with marines. You sleep like them, you eat like them, you learn everything they can cram into our brains in eight weeks. It was a tiring and trying time but well worth it in the end. I graduated this particular school on May 28th of 2002 with orders to MCB Quantico for what I did not know at this time.

Doc A signing off.

Chapter 1

2010-06-19T05:30:00.003+09:00

2001-
The year that alot of history as we know it was written, the computers were really coming into their own, the PlayStation was a giant among giants, every kid, cat, dog and fish had a cell phone, and I had made a big decision in my life, the time was February and it was a quiet cold winter in Hamlin, N.Y. when I decided that I wanted to serve for the country that I was so proud and honored to be a part of. I had narrowed my choice down to either the Marines, Navy, or Airforce. I was 17 at the time so the parents did have a say in what branch it was that I joined. I had to present my case and present I did, the Air force by far the most dangerous job I wanted to do was be a pararescuemen, these guys are the elite of the Airforce they willing go behind enemy lines to pick up down pilots and crew members and various other cool things. My parents ney'd that one to death, then came the marines now mind you I wanted to have a medical job, and that was my path and nobody was going to tell me otherwise, so I walked into the marines recruiters office and sat down with the Sgt. there and said Sgt. I want to be a marine! The Sgt responded with "well son what is it that you wish to do to become a United States Marine?" "do you want to be a grunt, Motor T operator, or perhaps and aircraft mechanic?" I looked at him with quite a discontent look as these were nothing of the sort that I wanted to do. I stated "no I want to be a medic with the marines and take care of them, I hear that is a pretty honorable job." The Sgt replied " why yes it is, it is one of the hardest jobs of the marine corps, however we do have a rate or as we call it MOS for that." I replied well then how do I go about becoming one." The Sgt replied " As much as I hate to say this son, this is what you need to do." " you need to walk over to the Navy recruiters office next door and tell them you want to be a Hospital Corpsman." I replied " a hospital corpsman?" Sgt replied "yes, the blood angels as they are called. They will go to hell and back to get their marines out of harms way and will stop at nothing even if it means that they do not come home." I replied " well that sounds like my type of job."

So off I went, I walked into the Navy recruiters office and did all the talking blah blah blah I want to be a corpsman when can I leave and etc.. Then came the hard part pitching the idea to the parents. I sat down and wrote down all the pro's and con's of me joining the United States Navy. I sat down with my parents and put my cards out on the table and surprisingly they actually went for the idea. The recruiter came over and I got signed up. I left on July 30th of 2001 for bootcamp nervous as nervous can be, I was away from home for the first time since I was born, I was alone, and in a stranger new place where people were going to be yelling and telling me what to do constantly. We started what we call 1-1 day (which means where they can start Physically training you) on my birthday something I learned real quick to keep quiet about. The days came and went and I be the laundry petty officer for our division. We had a umique division we were what they called a triple threat division, meaning that we had band, color guard, and a rifle team. I will say our rifle team was TOP notch to say the least. I played the trumpet so that is how I got to be part of that division.

This is about the part where live turned rather interesting, it was a cloudy morning in Wakegan Il and I was sent off by my RDC's(recruit division commander, or Drill instructor) to go get my dress whites tailored because that very next week we were going to be graduating a division. It was 7:25 or so when I was sent on my way over there, a typical quiet morning to say the least. So i spent the better part of the day in there and little did I know what was going on outside of the little space I was standing in. The twin towers had been attacked and fallen, the pentagon had been attacked, a plane went down in Pennsylania somewhere. Chaos/ terror had struck the US and we were in threatcon delta. I left the tailor shop at approximately 1330 or so, started my trip back to the barracks when it hit me, something was missing, I did not know exactly what but something was just not right. I didn't hear any divisions marching around on the grinder or cars cruising by on the streets, there was no air traffic above. It was just all too quiet, so I thought somehow I had missed something along the way and needed to get back to the barracks as quick as my legs would carry me. I got to the front door when I was met by one of the Senior RDC's who didn't particularly like me too much, made me drop and give him 20 pushups while he inspected my uniforms. I got upstairs and I asked our watch " what happened???, Where is everybody" he replied with a there all upstairs grab your shoe shine stuff and get up there quickly. I reported upstairs where I was quickly stopped by one of my RDC's she called me into her office and proceeded to be nice to me (something new trust me) and asked me to sit down as she had some news for me. I was told about the attacks that had happened that morning and that they were going to show a video tape from CNN of the second plane hitting the towers. I didn't believe her until I actually watched that video and the Chaplain came in to see me. See I was a New Yorker, and a Emergency provider in the state, so they thought that I should go home. I chose not too, and instead with a drive like none other proceeded to graduate bootcamp and proceed to Hospital Corpsman A School, now the rest of this story will be told in chapter 2 as it mainly happes in 2002 however I will say that the 2001 year pretty much went off without any issues other than graduation.

The big day was upon our division to be done with bootcamp we were set to graduate. There was one big obstacle that we had to get over 9/11 had just happened not but three weeks earlier and America was still bleeding from her wounds and the military was still in it's highest threat con yet to date. Were we going to get to see our families?? Better yet were they going to get to see us march??? The answer to the this question came to us two days before our ceremony, Yes boys and girls the Base CO has decided to let your parents on now mind you they will not be able to tour the base but they will be able to come on and see you all march. So we did our thing and my parents took forever to find but I did end up finding them. The rest is well boring so I am not going to touch on it but from there I literally went across the street to Hospital Corpsman A-school. Which as I stated before will lead us into the 2002 year of my career.
Until tomorrow
Doc A Signing off!

A story from the eye of.

2010-06-06T15:52:00.004+09:00

Well first I must start off with the infamous Foreword. You know the section where it tells about what this here story is going to be about and blah blah blah so here goes. I have decided to write down my memories of war and the stories from the eye of a Hospital Corpsman during my time in Iraq in 2003, 2005-2006. I will keep names from this because well I do not have contact with all of my guys anymore so I do not have their legal permission to use them. I would like to first start off by saying some thanks here and well although I do not have their legal permission I'm pretty sure they would give it too me if I asked. I want to thank my mother and father Camilla and Doug Arthur who have been the most supportive parents as I traveled these rough seas called life. I would like to also thank my best friend from before the service Jeshua Smith, Jesse has also been there though alot of my hiccups in life and although he could have very well left he choose to stay. My other best friend and he is from the service would be none other than HM1 now Marc Sivengy, although our paths have crossed and uncrossed a numerous amount of times, he also has always been there to give me his insite on life and a calm thoughtful perception of what is real. I would not be complete without mentioned Mr Haines, Eric and I have had an interesting friendship to say the least, but he and I have been there through some of the worse times you could imagine and yet we are still friends. So to all of you thank you! You will always hold a place in my heart. I was born on the morning of August 5th 1983 in Ny and well yes this is where my journey had begun little knew what would ensue in the years to come. I grew up a relatively normal life I suppose all things considered, was a rather trouble child who from the start had always seem to have a chip on his shoulder. I came into teenager hood,then came into adulthood and what most would consider an unused path, it was by choice that I decided to join the navy and this is what I am here to write about so this is what if you choose to read you will read. The chapters will be as follows they will start off with 2001 when I joined till 2006 when I departed the navy(active duty that is) and continue onto to the point where I sit today.
I hope you enjoy!

a ship set sail,

2010-05-25T16:29:00.002+09:00

A ship has set sail with my heart. I have no idea where it will go, and no idea if it will ever return just simply travel until it dies. I have no feeling left just emptiness, have you ever wondered what it would be like to feel nothing at all? Well I can tell you it does exactly feel as it sounds just like nothing. I've gone past the hate, sadness, loneliness to just plain absolutely nothing feeling wise. I rammed my head in the top of the shower last night and should have felt something as I remember doing it but instead I didn't. I just don't even care anymore, I really do wonder if I will ever regain my heart back or if somebody will catch it and bring it back before it gets too far away?? I cannot wait to go home, it is sadly looking like not until july or august time frame sadly but that is ok because well that will give me plenty of time to get ready I suppose. So for now I am going to rewatch the entire NCIS season 1-6 (not all at once). SO i bid you all aldue and good night

Doc A signing off.

The eternal question

2010-05-19T18:58:00.003+09:00

SO I sit here at 0300 hours and I ask myself this one unanswered question which I know I will probably never get an answer too. Why holly did you do what you did?? why? I know this is question that will probably eat at me for some time to come, and for that sucks I will have to say but I wish I could get it answered. I know holly doesn't read this post so I don't know why I even bother to write this other than to get it off of my mind. I sit here alone, with my cat in a friend's house miles away from people that care about me like family(nothing against my friend because he does) but I just really want to be done with this, done with the divorce, done with Arizona just done. I want to restart my life and may it be successful and I find somebody who does actually care about who I am and what I do and what I've done. I know this sounds selfish but I am tired of pleasing people by being fake why can't you just accept who I am. I am a wounded vet who although is no longer serving has injuries that will forever haunt me. I highly doubt that anybody out there will ever understand or want to be part of my life. I am ok with that not saying that I necessarily that I want it to be that way but that maybe it has to be that way. I have hurt way to many people, with the demons I hide inside of me I just want to be normal is that possible for me? I cannot sleep as I am plagued by the failure that again has struck my life, wondered what's next I sincerely hope it isn't as bad as the last time. I really just want a woman that supports and loves me for the faults I have and the strengths that I don't and do have. I really crave to just be loved unconditionally like my cat does which is why I am so attached to her because she doesn't care if I yell, taunt or pick on her. I am her owner who feeds her and loves her and she wishes nothing else except for me to be happy and to be her owner. I know i am assosicating a cat to a human here but seriously is there anybody out there that is like that. I think possibly but will I meet them in my lifetime who's to know. So I will sit here again alone in my life as I grow a year older soon. I guess I am done bitching for now, I am going to try to sleep we'll see just how unsuccessful this attempt will be. In other news the VA was overly helpful today and that was quite nice, they gave me money for food, haircut, gas, and various odd's and end's. They are also going to help me pay for some of my bills which are definitely mounting up these days. Well for now I am off to try to sleep with a massive headache and hopefully I have a better day tomorrow. Holly I do hope you have a successful future since I have failed to be a good husband, that you may find someone who will be a better fit for your particular attitude style, I do also hope that you sit down and talk to somebody about your past you need to! Eric, Thank you as always for being there through the good times and the bad always shows how true of a friend you are and I sincerely owe you for what you have already done. Jesse, The friend who although went back to NY has been there through many of my life's ups and downs thank you to you too I do appeicate it and I also owe you my life for many of people envy having friend's such as yourself. I love you like a brother I never had and would do anything for you without question. Jennifer, I know we have grown apart over the years but I do love you! I am not saying this just because I am looking for a rebound, but I am sincerely sorry I left when I did to go to japan(i know i didn't really have a choice) but I really wished that I could gotten to know you more your a sweetheart and I am sorry I let you go. To my parents, man am I lucky to have you guys I know the earlier years in my life were rather trying and sorry for that. But you guys have stuck by my side like none other through all the good times and bad. The stupid decisions I have made and the good ones, I love you guys and I miss ya dearly!!
Doc A signing off.
P.S.- I have no intentions of hurting myself I will still be here just expressing my feelings so if your concerned relax your feelers I am ok I promise. I have too much life to live and too many people to help still to leave this earth.

oh it's been a while.

2010-05-12T09:50:00.002+09:00

Well well well,
HMMMMMM so alot has happened since the last time I posted on the ol blog here, a many jobs have come and go. The last one which I still currently hold is at the University of Phoenix(gay job) which I truly hate. I also am looking to try to get back on an ambulance, I am currently married(although working on getting divorce) 3 months. I thought it would work but boy did I get a slap in the face with her. Sigh.... where do I always go wrong, honestly I think I just scare people away with my demons and that they will forever haunt me. So here I sit alone, tormented by thoughts of what can no longer be. I have filed for divorce from super bitch, talking with some old friends and ex g/f who is good to chat with, and an old ritzy friend who my heart has never truly healed from and i'm not sure if I want it too. The evy cat is chilling with me purring away, and I wonder why did my life turn out this way I hurt all the time in my shoulders, my brain aches with past memories, and I seem to push women away as quick as I bring them in except for a very few. I wonder why that is, I suppose it is because of undue stress caused upon me or that I cause upon them. I really wonder what the point of dating is anymore to be quite honest. In other news I have offically decided that I am going to NY for a well needed R&R and I look forward to finally being able to clear my mind and become a civilian. I need that more than I need to breathe. I suppose I have nothing further now, except to say to the ritzy girl HI and I hope we can see each other again I could use a hug.
Doc A Signing off.

a mind full...

2008-11-23T11:15:00.003+09:00

So I talked with as my mood states "good old ritzy friend" and I got to thinking I wonder why she called me? I hope that she reads this and can provide an answer to it, it also made me wonder what would have happened between us had i not left bethesda when I did would we have stayed together or not. I know most people would say your obsessing over a girl blah blah well maybe I am but i really did care about this girl and well there was something about her that made her different from the rest, one of which being that she is from where i grew up and called home for so long, but just is something that i can't quite think of how to put words too. I remember when i was playing oasis wonderwall on rockband and my roommate asked me when i told him about her putting this on a cd for when i left for oki, you really cared about her didn't ya dude? I said yea and still do she is the one girl I would drop everything for. I guess I end this by saying I really wonder if we were ever meant to be and what are her thoughts on the whole situation to be honest? Well for now i'm going to sit here and ponder.
I just need to get this off my chest cause well it's been on my mind all week.
Anywho nothing really new and exciting here just decided to start to post a little more regularly, and for the record college is off to a roaring start and frankly I think i'm doing pretty good in it. It is only the first week but i'm maintaining an A average currently between all my classes so I can't complain to overly much. Well for now I'm out of here
Doc A Signing off,
P.S. to the "ritzy girl" I don't think your truly ritzy but it is rather entertaining to get the good old battle going between us about where we lived and such.

here i am

2008-11-18T18:22:00.003+09:00

So i was talking to good friend tonight on the phone, who still holds a place in me little heart what's left of my heart these days, I am doing well down here and starting school and what not. I figured that i should put a little post up here giving people an update of what is going in my little life. I am persuin a degree in psychology which i hope to long term help out vets and what not but for now i'm going to go do nothing and continue to talk to the ritzy friend on the phone. Also I forgot to add I got a new tattoo on my left calf I don't know if wrote this before so if i did i'm sorry but it says
OIF1,3-4
"freedom is a price the free will never understand"
Doc A Signing off

The move

2008-06-10T18:17:00.002+09:00

Well,
Where to begin I guess would be the question at hand here? I have recently moved to arizona as of about oh 2-3 days ago( freaking longest car ride I think i've ever done) 34 hours of drive time. Anywho, I am here with a brother from the service and glad that his wife and him have allowed me to stay here till I can get on my feet. In other news I am single again, unfortunate yes but I think for the better and no i'm not here to shit talk just say this.. It's unfortunate it had to end the way it did but i do believe that it is for the better for both parties involved. I do have a kitty I don't think i've put that into any recent posts. The kitties name is evy she is 1 3/4 year old tortise shell and is my video game buddy and yes she made the 34 hour drive with me. Anywho other than that not a whole lot going on just trying to find a job and such. So for now i'm going to go lie in my bed and just think about random nothingness.
Laters
Doc A

a day of thought.

2007-11-12T08:01:00.000+09:00

So here I sit recovering from a recent knee surgery (from being in the service) and yes to some i am the always to be made fun of or joked about and you know what you do that because well i guess it makes you a better person who's to know. But as I sit here on veteran's day 2007 I want to put out a bit of thanks to a couple of people who well weren't alive for me to thank in person, 1) my grandfather (for which my middle name comes from) Cpl. James Arthur 101st Airborne WW2, and 2) my uncle Sgt Louie Ramsey Unknown Unit U.S. Army Vietnam 1971, killed by Booby Trap 1971. I want to say thank you to both of you who although relative #1 didn't die in combat #2 did and for that i will just say thank you for making the ultimate sacrafice so that the ignorant people in this country can make fun of people. I did my time and yes I don't want a thank you cause well I made it back barely but I still made it back. You ask what do you mean barely well i will say look a this picture up top and I will say I was in this. SO i will end with this remember this give thanks to those who fight for your country before you ridicue them.

Signing off

Doc A

And to those who decide to say what they will because I left paramedic class, well I have this to say to you and you wonder why nobody wants to date you and your not very well liked by a lot of people because you are very ignorant and full of yourself and well I will hopefully not be there the day you kill somebody with your ignorance.

the birthday

2007-08-08T17:40:00.000+09:00

So as most who care know I turned a year older recently aug 5th to be exact. It was a different one to say the least mainly because I was home in the US for the first time in five years, and either not in a foreign country, iraq, or flying to iraq. Well the better half said to me when i got home from work what do I want to do? I of course didn't know what to do except well go to bed. Well she aparently made some phone calls and such and got a hold of all my friends and went out and bought me an xbox 360 elite (which i still at this point haven't opened) and told them to meet us at tulley's so I called work and asked if it was cool if i didn't come in till 8 because i didn't have a partner. Well mr. bennetti being a nice guy as he decided well why don't you just come in at 10 instead so that was sweet. Christina finally gets me out the door and such we had to stall for a bit and we show up to the surprise of my buddy jesse, paul and britney(jesse's g/f) sitting there at tulley's well we had a good time and all was marry and such. I pretty much have to say it was by far the best b-day i've ever had and I also must throw in thanks mom for not even bothering to give me a call or anything! Anywho off i go I missed class today cause I over slept so blah to me not sleeping much. So i'll have to make that up but for now i'm outta here.
Doc A
Signing off

an interesting twist

2007-07-30T18:02:00.000+09:00

So things as you can see haven't been to overly exciting out there I suppose, getting ready to move out of the current apt and into a new apt with the g/f for whom i love a whole heck of a lot, really to be honest can't even begin to put into words. Christina I'm glad that you walked into my life I really am you definitely make everyday worth waking up too as well as an adventure. Thank you.

I go home the other day on my normal Wednesday for squad night in good ol hamlin and i see there is a piece of mail from the navy, now my first thought is "oh boy here I go again off to iraq" but I was definitely wrong (it was in a large manila envelope) so i rip the top open and go hmmm that's an award cover thing. I open it up and am completely speechless, I had received a bronze star for my actions during my last tour in iraq a pleasant surprise I must say. So i include it here (above right)for those who wish to read the citation. On that note I suppose I'm going to sit here and enjoy the last hour of pure boredom on 9849 (couch on wheels) ambulance. Laters
doc A signing off

zero

2007-06-14T02:34:00.000+09:00

zero? hmmm well i enjoy being a zero thanks :) so for whom ever left that comment thanks because it means that i'm the blunt end of all your jokes. Which apparently brings you much joy so please do continue your petty name calling. I'll still be here today and tomorrow regardless.
Doc A signing off

and to respond to the zed comment left on my previous rant

2007-06-01T15:30:00.001+09:00

WELL WELL i think i know who wrote this and too you. Nice job I have tears flowing from my eyes from the laugh you just gave me and yea hamlin ambulance eh nice try with that. I'll say this in response because I have a feeling I know who this is. If you want to talk shit come to my face because last i checked neither shawn nor rob got laid and that comes straight from the "herpes" girl's (who by the way is absolutely fucking amazing, and if you only knew what you didn't have that she does, and she does have a name too but i'll keep that out for her sake) mouth who by the way doesn't have herpes were 100% sure of that also i want to know can I get "pancakes" with that. BUT needless to say why don't you grow the fuck up and lose oh i'd say about 100 lbs and take that hidious piece of fucking bulldog jewlery out of your ass for a face. Oh i must also say that i really hope that the other 75 employee's you've supposely slept with gave you herpes because sex for a night is great but last i checked herpes lasts a lifetime. AIN'T THAT BUTTA BITCH! and if it isn't this zed person i think it is well i don't feel sorry because well i hope you stop breeding because we have enough ugly and fucking stupid people in society. IF HOWEVER it is somebody else who "thinks there in hamlin" i'm glad to hear that you have fallen into the level that my 3 year old cousin is at, because well it creates for some good comic level for me and I really (i mean it) honestly appeciate your childish comment.

stupid fucks

2007-05-16T09:53:00.001+09:00

So I work last night Monday the 14^th of May and I find out from a co-worker that supposedly that I quote unquote have a white supremacy website, although quite ridiculously comical is very not true. If you understood what this site was about then you would maybe know what it is really about. It’s a blog site with a funny ploy on communism (which by the way is a joke between my brother and I) nothing serious. So unfortunally I have to undo the damage that you fucks have done. SO here I sit with a list of what needs to be said.

1) NO I DON’T I REPEAT DON’T HAVE A WHITE SUPREMACY WEBSITE!!!!!

If you can’t understand that then you need to realize that this site is where I can express my feelings and expressions because last I Checked I lived in the United States that has a freedom of expression. ( 1^st amendment)

2) I love the fact that you folks involved are so immature that you have to start a rumor mill based on something that apparently you haven’t read into. Also let us not forget that you probably are very insecure with yourself so you feel the need to lash out on somebody else because of your insecurities. (truth hurts huh??)

3) If you hate me because “ you think that I have a site about blah blah blah” why is it that you don’t approach me instead of being a moron and whispering to your buddies.

4) So I exit with this note. If you don’t like me go fuck yourself because I didn’t come to Monroe to make friends I came there for a job and to help out people. Secondly how bout you people involved in this rumor mill how bout you grow the fuck up and stop being a 12 year old child because last I checked were all adults. Although here I could be assuming that people know how to take civil ways to talk to each other instead of just backstabbing somebody.

5) so I lied I must end on this note, I appreciate the good laugh that you have given me with your childish little games, and also if you feel the need to talk about this go right ahead because I know I’m not going to lose any sleep at all and I will still probably be the same person I was today, tomorrow.

On that note,

Doc A signing off.

P.S. also feel free to comment because this should be comical.

ever wonder?

2007-04-04T15:40:00.000+09:00

I have been doing alot of thinking these days and you know what I realized I missed alot of things in my life that well either I lost due to moving around in the military or I just missed in general. So i compiled a list of what I miss or would love to have a second chance at.
1) A certain ritzy girl that currently resides in MD although our relationship was short I would say honestly with no hesistation that if you were to say that you wanted us to be together I would drop everything I have here right now and move to where you were with out one second thought and I honestly miss you a whole lot although you were a pain in my butt sometimes I truly loved ya alot and feel that to some extent you still hold a piece of my heart. (if you read this I really wish it doesn't make you run away)
2) growing up I miss the not being forced to grow up due to the fact that I was in a foreign country where 200 marines depended upon me to never let them down.
3) getting my college degree earlier enough said.
4) keeping the friends I lost
5) sleep although I consider it overrated still to this day I really do miss the days where I could control when I did and didn't sleep and just for one day I would love to not either be going to class then work, work, work then class, or just having 1000 other things to do.

I know it has been a while since i've posted but I gotta be honest I've been down in the dumps and haven't really felt like doing much of anything I must say i've become particularly lonely these days and I feel the only person to blame is me I've pushed everybody away that was important in my life and for that i'm truly sorry. I worked 40 hours a week so it's not like i don't have time for people I guess i'm just depressed is the best way I can put it. Well on this note I'm going to go find someting to do. Oh and in case I forgot I got me a new car well sorta new it's an 04 taurus SE I love it it rides nice is fully loaded and well gets alot better gas mileage than the good ol truck was getting so unfortunally I did have to get rid of the one thing in my life that has always been there through thick and thin. (nothing against friends just well it traveled the entire eastern seaboard with me so) I end this on one last note. I miss the feeling of happiness as i feel my soul slide further away from it.
Doc A signing off.

blah

2007-02-25T16:44:00.000+09:00

So here I sit on the ambulance again at werk. Sigh I do live such a pathetic life I realized, I take care of people that don't even care/realize i even exist I go day to day in a whisp like the wind hardly noticed (not that i really want to be overly noticed). I guess I miss a few things hearing I love you from somebody besides the rents, having my own place. Having somebody smile because of my actions not because they have too but because they choose too. I really truly miss those days. And i will end it on that note I desire to want a g/f now and that settles that. I'm off to go wander the 1,000,000 miles of internet land.
Doc A signing off.

and another day passes.

2007-01-30T23:34:00.000+09:00

Well I suppose I should keep you folks informed of the new coming of me. Well there isn't really anything new. I started my paramedic class last week and yea it's going good I suppose. I work you know crazy hours and to be quite frank I feel lost right now, or that I just want to scream. I don't know why but it just seems I can't focus on much of anything anymore have no interest in anything orther than work and going to class. I guess I just need a vacation or something I don't know but for now i'm off to go do something because I need to get out of my house.

and the blows just keep coming

2007-01-24T00:19:00.000+09:00

You ever get that feeling that you just want to just curl up into a ball and die?? Well today would definitely be on of those days, I get done with work and get in my truck and blam hardly any brakes. Not a big deal but let us not forget that at work I had a little tussle with operations for about 30 mins about the fact that I was still coverage less for my paramedic class this evening. I think I finally have that issue solved. So I get my truck into the shop and find out yea the brakes are bad (no surpise) and then also find out that my wheel bearing on my driver's side yea it's also shot. FUCK! 500 dollars later (thanks dad) and yea definitely just in a quite depressed day wishing and normally i wouldn't say this often if at all anymore, wishing I had a g/f or somebody in my life that I could just get a hug from I really could use one sigh. Ah well move on i suppose take the blow to the gut and charge forward I don't have the time too many people depend on me to not stop to never falter to never slow down and I can't let them down. So for now I try to get some sleep. I will say by the way an excellent song I just listened to is green eyes-coldplay. Anywho
Doc A Signing off
Wishing I had a female shoulder to cuddle into (one last sigh for the day)

a year has come and gone.

2007-01-01T15:53:00.000+09:00

Taking a look back at 2006 alot has come and gone. I've been through some times i'll be soon to never forget. I had better half which I left for what reasons I wish i could truly explain to anybody but well that is unfortunally now last years news. Anywho here I sit at hamlin volunteer ambulance, alone and bored out of my goard volunteering to keep watch on a town that has no idea i'm even here and although rewarding in ways for which most will never understand it's kind of depressing at the same time. I always revert back to asking myself am I really this much of a loser and inevitably the answer to that question seems to always lean towards yes. I truly think I will never know nor do I think i'll start trying to find the one thing right now that would calm me down a woman who could tolerate and deal with me and my craziness. On a different note to those of you out there doing what i was doing this time last year in iraq. Your not forgotten I always keep tabs as best as I can. Onto a different note the new plan of action for this year I guess you could say it's like a Chinese Communist 5 year plan so without further adue.
1) quit smoking this year(although it will take time I'm sure I will succeed in this at some point this year)
2) start my college career (23rd jan I will be starting paramedic class and i'm going to blow it out of the water) and that is the end of the story there.
3) start researching into the MD field see what it is I should study in before going to medical school to make myself more noticeable to the people who make the yay or ney decision of me getting in.
4)get a newer vehicle because well i can't keep affording my truck gas bill every week (ouchy)
5) find without doing any work what was zed mentioned about the woman issue up above.
6) write more frequently here on my good ol blogging site of the bloggingness.
7) establish myself in the workplace of monroe ambulance get the network required to make life easier.
8) starting march 1st colin goes back to gym everyday except prob sunday because well i gotta give the body one day of rest a week (some might wonder why wait till march because well that is when i will be eliable for healthcare benefits at work and in case I injure myself I want to be covered.)
9.) Save money first and foremost this should be #1 but of course well i know it will be hard with new car,college,food,work, and other expected expenses(video games,dates, etc....)
Well to conclude this evening I will end accordingly to all of you out there may you have a happy new years and may your year be happy and such and if its not well remember this you are the reaper of what you sow. On that note PEACE BITCHES!
Doc A (sorry it's just who i am)
Signing off.

so yea today fucking sucked

2006-11-27T08:55:00.000+09:00

Well what a start to a day I could tell it was going to be off to roaring bad start. I woke up later then I wanted too which of course pushed everything back for me getting to work when I wanted too. Then I get to work and yea basically have my entire shift fucked over cause well poor planning on the management side of the house glad to see people almost attempt to use there fucking brain. I have to ask on that note how some people are exceptions to the rules well others are under a fucking microscope? I don't fucking know but it really urks me and just makes me want to go WHAT THE FUCKING HELL!!!! then my day well the morning was alright didn't do anything. Had in my opinion a paramedic that frankly i really wish i didn't have to work with again because well he was just a plain prick. Then I get my day all screwed up in the afternoon by the operations chief because well his management staff did another fucking wonderful job of screwing my shift up. So i finally got on with a good paramedic who i do truly enjoy working with. Which made the day somewhat better I suppose I just want this "training" and see how i put the quotes there to be over with. because honestly there method of training is ludacris and stupid in my opinion do i have a way to fix it. The answer to that question would be no but still something needs to be done. The only redeeming factor is that I get paid for other people idiotiacy regardless. Thank god for that. On that note i'm fucking done. I'm going to drink a beer and relax.

well then

2006-11-06T14:19:00.000+09:00

well here i sit in my "room" of sorts if you want to call it that. it's really the basement in the house. Which in the grand scheme of things isn't bad because it's downstairs and well i can be by myself without interuptions which is nice. I'm back home in the good ol ny and it's nice running ems with hamlin. I start my new job tomorrow at monroe ambulance looking forward to that other than what is already starting to happen to my body of just not sleeping again. I'm on the meat market(single) as people call it these days and honestly am not really rushing into anything as of the moment just till i get my head screwed on straight since I know these next few months will be rather interesting with the job and school and such starting really soon. There is one thing on my mind that I do need to get off my chest that's well been bothering me for a while and it needs to be stopped. How is it that somebody can just as quick as they were something in your life just fade out to nothing now some people may ask who is this person well they know who they are and if you assume that your the person well your just making an ass out of yourself so don't even think that. I've decided to just be the quiet guy that everybody just breezes by without noticing to overly much and honestly I kind of like it. There are certain people how ever with my new stance that feel as if i'm threathening to them and I have to honestly ask a) how in the fuck can you think that?? and b)grow the fuck up just because i'm not talking to you doesn't mean that I don't like you as a friend maybe I just don't feel like talking and honestly I don't have to have a reason to not talk to you other than just I don't feel like it. On that note what else is a going on well this whole joke of the election season I find it quite comical how all these so called politicians slander each other and then want us to vote for them. why in god's name would i want to vote for somebody who can't tell me what they really want to do with my state if elected and b have nothing better to do than waste 40 of my seconds with a commerical that slanders there opponent. I honestly say who gives a fuck if your good at your job which some are and some aren't then you shouldn't need to say anything other than hey i'm running for this office and this is my party affiliation. But i'm just another person in society who's voice isn't big enough to matter and I definitely don't have enough cash to flash to tell them to shut the fuck up so I suppose i'll just sit in my little town and grumble at all the idiots we elect these days and call our leaders. On another note more or less on this topic let me devulge into america as a whole there is one thing that reared it's ugly head quite nicely while I was in the service, and that being just how ignorant America really is and how much we take things for granted. I really wish that people could see how the other countries are run or how our country is truly run and then maybe just maybe they would pull there head out of there ass and realize that they can have a say. BUT NOOOO instead everybody and there grandmother would rather just bitch about how bad everything is instead of doing something about it. I suppose for this evening I am done ranting but sometimes I really wish that killing stupid and useless people was legal. My list would include the entire state of md and nj and well va and hmm iraq and where else parts of the city of rochester and parts of nyc. Now for you fucks out there that are reading this and going OH MY GOD THIS GUY IS GOING TO KILL ALL THESE INNOCENT PEOPLE!!!! open your fucking eyes and realize that this is just me typing i have no REAL intent of killing anybody. just me bitching so if you don't like that well get the fuck off my rant and go bitch to somebody who cares.
Anywho i'm outta here for the evening.
Formally known as Doc A signing off,
P.S. in case i forgot to mention it I'm no longer in the U.S. Navy

well it's definitely been a REALLY long time

2006-09-01T11:50:00.000+09:00

Well what to talk about?? HMMMMM well i guess i could start with the tidbits of good news I am no longer active duty in the U.S. Navy and honestly it feels kind of weird to not be but i'm glad i'm not, the other tidbit of good news I finally got my NYS EMT-D card so i'm certified nationally as well as in the state of ny, which is sweet. On the unfortunate bad news side of the house I lost my love felicia and honestly if she was to ask me to take her back i would most definitely say yes in a heart beat, is that probably the best thing for both of us to do I couldn't honestly answer that but I still love her with all my heart and it's hard to even be away from her. But that's my issue so i will leave the book sealed for only her's and my eyes. SO for now i'm going to sign off.
Doc A outta here back in ny

what you see may not nessicarily be what is really happening

2006-04-24T12:41:00.000+09:00

Well as most have read that "iraq is being said to not be in civil war" well yes when i was heading out the door of that country i know damn well they were starting a civil war so for all you politicans out there go fuck yourself because you sit in your lazyboy's doing nothing all day except bitch and complain about bush and the fact of what's going on here did you ever bother to take a look at the bigger picture and realize that maybe it's not about your fat, money grubbing self. There are young men and women out there who is a moment's notice are giving there lives for the better good of what? Yourself? selfish fuck another reason why i'm getting ready to walk out the door of the US navy now don't get me wrong it's been alot of fun in the 5 years i've been in i've meet alot of really cool people who i would go to war with in a second (haines,siv) and then i've met a bunch of people that should just be hit with a bat and left for dead. I'm still here in okinawa japan and you know coming back i thought maybe it won't be so bad i'm getting antsy to get the hell out of here and i realized just how bad of driver's okinawan's really are, it's times like these i wish i had my up armored hmmwv with it's bumper to just hit cars and shoot the rest of them. That's just me call me violent or racist i'm racist i just think that japanese people suck at driving. Anywho on other news i'm going to be getting married here in the near future not exactly sure what the date is yet but me and the soon to be wife are working the details out so i'm sure we'll both come to a conclusion. I know it's been a while since i've written in here so for that i'm sorry i've been busy with the knee getting scoped and such so haven't had much time to do not of anything except droll on myself and play videogames because they don't require to much thought. To my love felicia I love you a whole lot and I miss you like crazy and I can't wait till I can be with you forever. To the rest of my loyal listeners out there thanks again and for anybody in iraq who checks my blog leave me a message with your blog if your a blogger so i can get your addy so i can send you stuff you guys will always be supported by me. LOVE YA GUYS
Doc A signing off
I'm definitely not live in iraq (WooT WooT!!)

To work I go UGH!

2006-02-22T14:36:00.000+09:00

I will be heading back to okinawa for 5 months or so here in a couple of days and I will say I enjoyed every single day of my leave to the fulliest. I am definitely leaving someone behind who i will miss very dearly and can't wait to get back too. I hope she does decide to move to ny so we can have an awesome relationship together. I love you felicia very much so and yes I still have some growing up to do please know that I want you in my life and have every intent of keeping you in my life as long as you can stand me :-p To all you others around there especially my bro out in the sunny desert of az I plan on taking a week in april time frame to come visit you just so you know so i'll keep you posted but we'll definitely have a grand old time. What else to my friends here in good ol hamlin/brockport ny I will miss you guys but know i'll be back soon for good this time, hopefully with my lovely fiancee in tow(i mean that in a good way :-) and we'll have some good ol times). To you chumps at hamlin ambulance I hope you'll be able to pick up the slack of me being gone while i'm gone but know i'll be back now i may not be around as much because like it says above hopefully my better half will be up here in ny with me but time shall tell, just know i'll always be around and hopefully either pick up the 2M-34 spot from cody or the 2M-24 spot from colleen. Well for now folks I'm outta here I will be enjoying my last day of being a lazy bum and love every minute of it other than the fact that I am alone(not technically but i'm missing my beautiful other half felicia). Just a thought I want to share GOD I LOVE HER!!! and i'm OOOOOOOHH SO IN LOVE WITH HER!!! and nobody can change my thought on that so if you have problems well i have this to say cry me a river build a bridge and get over it because she is in my life to stay.
Doc A Signing off
That's right i'm no longer live from iraq, this is definitely a NY broadcast.

Is it possible most would say no I know otherwise

2006-01-22T00:36:00.000+09:00

Here I am in iraq in baghdad and i'm wearing more gear here than I would be back home cold weather wise. Some ask is that possible in a desert well i'm here to tell you HELL YES! My hands yes they go numb if you don't cover them and the ears start bitching because of the wind well here I wait for my flight out of this god forsaken excuse for a"not third world country" I really have started to dislike this place a whole lot and am more than glad to get out of here. There is however a part of me that wishes I hadn't the medic in me goes what are you doing dude? You still have your guys out there and yes mind you they have another medic you know them better than anybody else our happy little dysfunctional family and our trucks that always had something wrong with them. AH yes the good ol days I know i'm not home yet but guys for me PLEASE be careful I don't want to find out one of you didn't make it home and there was something I could have done to make a difference, otherwise I'm outta here for now this should be my last entry live from iraq.
Doc A signing off
(to you a bid a farewell and a middle finger iraq FUCK YOU I'M OUT!)

oh yes to the land of the big px I come

2006-01-10T18:50:00.000+09:00

Well on some good news here in about 9 days I start my process of getting out of iraq. I can't wait rather unexpected news I suppose because I was figuring on being here till march/ april time frame but i'm not going to complain cutting the tour short at 5 months. I get to go home to good ol ny and there better be snow on the ground DAMN IT! I get to drive me truck I can't wait for that I haven't driven here in going on two years. I get to finally meet miss felicia and I am really looking forward to that a day that has long been waiting to come. I think I might have to fly back to okinawa first which honestly is quite stupid but who's to know I'm trying to work the leave thing so as soon as I touch down in the states I go on leave. We'll see what the asshole chief says if he does say anything at all. Anywho for now i'm outta here on a mission for the night not really sure what it is maybe to go fix something who's to know. Well felicia i love you very much. 8 days and a wake up.
Doc A signing off
Live from iraq (not much longer)

hi there

2005-12-22T04:15:00.000+09:00

Well folks as you can see it's been a good while since I've put a post up here so I decided I would throw a post up here. Well it is closing in on the holiday's 4 more days till christmas and a week and a half or so till christmas both of which will be spent here in iraq. I wanted to also let anybody who reads this and thinks i'm single, Well I have news to post on that issue I have a WONDERFUL g/f who is caring,awesome and just damn sexy. I can't wait to go home to finally kiss her and hold her in my arms. Felicia I lovvveee you!!! *mwah* In other news I have hopefully if everything works out well less than 100 days left here before I get to go home for 30 days and a little over 8 months left in the navy till I am done with my active duty contract. Oh you have no idea how much I can't wait to get out of the navy and get on with my life and hopefully move to pa, hoping of course that felicia wants me too and get started with college. Well to all you people out there that actually read this I wish you all a merry christmas. I wish I could be home to enjoy mine but I have a job to do so I shall do it to the best of my ability. Well for now I'm outta here. Felicia again I love you very much and I miss you a whole lot.
Doc A Signing off
Live from Iraq
P.S. owen if you read this let me know what the prices are going to be so I can make sure pops takes the cashola out for it. Thanks bro.

will this day ever end.

2005-12-05T01:40:00.000+09:00

Well today started off definitely on the wrong foot as just gone down hill steeply all day hopefully someone will get on soon and raise my spirits some. I found out this morning I have a particular thing wrong with my body which was the bad news for the day. I then knowing this bad news had to drive around all day doing stupid shit nearly getting hit which just didn't help. I sleep worse than I ever have before I don't know what is wrong with my body but I can not get it to fall asleep before 2 am at all no matter what I do. I wake up at 7:30 everyday to the same old shit that I left the night before. I'm sick and tired of my weak chain of command it's just getting on my nerves that I have nobody over here that has any balls attached to them to stand up for something that they think is wrong. I find it just ridiculously stupid and dumb but me being the lowest ranking guy in my all I can do is take it smile and go on about my day. So today in conclusion SUCKED! no and's if's or but's about it nothing good thus far at 745 pm has come out of this day. I wish I could just erase this day and start over from the beginning. Well for now I suppose I'll listen to some tunes and call it a day at some point. So until tomorrow i'm off to nothingness.
doc A signing off
Live from iraq.

interesting turn of events recently

2005-12-02T07:35:00.000+09:00

well I find this rather amuzin and good all in the same stroke. I am at my new location and I started talking to a particular individual that as time progressed I started to like more and more, or as I like to say my type of girl. Great smile,eyes, personality, body ya know all the requirement guys like to have meow. The cool part is that I actually got the balls to tell her how I felt now you may ask who is this person what is her name. Well I don't know if she wants this information disclosed so I shall for now leave it a mystery and if you don't like that well go pound sand. Anywho in other news me old man(dad) turned a year older yesterday, HAPPY BIRTHDAY DAD!!!! I also just about completed my christmas shopping for this year in iraq for my parents at home. I want to get this certain individual a christmas present but I don't know what she really would like so i'm wondering what would be good I can't pull a classic Colin Surprise so that's out. DAMN IT! meh oh well i guess i'll just have to ask and see what kind of response I get. I know this individual may read this so BLAH MEOW! Otherwise life is good i suppose got a siren on me truck here so it's nice and makes lots-o-noise. I'm going to go to bed now I didn't get to talk to who I wanted too :0(
Doc A signing off live from Iraq.

communist seal beatin monkies

2005-11-26T23:05:00.000+09:00

I just like that title so I put it up there cause well you know look at my title. I am now up at my new base and man does it suck I drive myself crazy just being bored. IT SUCKS!!!! well anywho i had a decent thanksgiving dinner so that was cool. What else is going on yes it's just a few days after thanksgiving and i'm in iraq and I have ALL of my christmas shopping done isn't that great you have got to love the internet. On another note I found out that I may be able to fly home to ft.drum with my team which would be sweet since you know home is rochester ny. Anywho more to follow in the next couple of days just wanted to put this post up here. Anywho.
Doc Eightball
live from Iraq.

i'm here but i'm there

2005-11-04T21:01:00.000+09:00

Well folks decided to pop my head in see what's going on. Not a whole lot we've moved to a new base, last night was rather interesting 2 hr firefight with the "bad guys" because it's the end of the holy month so there all either high or drunk so we had to go break up the fight because they were shooting at the iraqi policemen. Lets see what else exciting happened umm NOTHING we drove to fallujah today WOOO how not exciting. I got to play with marine corps frogs which I was happy about cause there old and leaky and just better than driving. For those of you who don't know what a frog is (it's a CH-46 seaknight) it's a helo. Anywho not a whole lot going on just getting ready for the second round of elections. So until next time PEACE and AXLE GREASE.
Doc A signing off
live from iraq

Ok now this straight pisses me off.

2005-10-27T02:09:00.000+09:00

http://www.slate.com/id/2128621/entry/2128622/
The audacity of some people these days I swear. I mean yea I understand this guy is getting deployed to iraq and yes that's a big deal it doesn't matter who you are. I just want to know why does he have to get a front page article on a website, well quite clearly the answer is because he's a reporter. I know for a fact you don't see the common marine,solider,airmen,sailor getting any articles written about them so why should he? Which brings me to my next point, a journalist hotel gets bombed and it makes the front page of every single news paper in the westernized world but do the reporters ever bother to think about what happens on a day to day basis? how many servicemembers go home injuried or are killed so that way you can make a big deal out of a bombing. Well news flash there reporter people are getting bombed every day so what's the big deal. I know somebody who reads this is like what's the big deal, well i have this to say to you have you ever wished that the news would just once report something positive in the world instead of everything negative or that effects there own life. I mean yes that's society today pleased by the simple bad news that doesn't involve them but yet there so interested in. I want to say this in the last week the city of fallujah in various parts has been mortered 11 times, had 23 ied's go off and 4 VBIED'S go off and you don't see that making the news now do you? Do I or anybody around really care now we just want to go home plain and simple, or as we like to say fuck fallujah.(inside joke) I have to say what IED,VBIED means for you non military types out there or for you stupid fucks in the military we like to call FOBbits yes your deployed over here but you never go anywhere except to the chow hall and back, IED(improvised explosive device), VBIED(vehicle borne Improvised explosive device "very dangerous to vehicles/ground troops") but what would the FOBbits know about something like that? They sit on there base and do nothing all day except waste more government dollars on a lazy country that really doesn't even want us in it. So back to my point that I started this rant with, and just get on with your life you don't need to share it with the genereal public spare us the diginity as the common ground troop so not be embrassed by you. Well for now I will leave on this note aubrianna love you and miss ya and can't wait till that day I can finally meet you. For all you others out there eat oreas and drink milk. Oh in case you wondered what a FOBbit is, FOB stands for forward observing base and FOBbit is someone who never leaves the FOB. There you go and if you read this and your a FOBbit do us all a favor and don't bother thinking your the shit cause unless your out there trying to make a difference your just another number making the government happy. There are 2000 servicemembers who gave there life so you could be safe on your little base. Anywho i'm outta here.
Live from iraq
Doc A signing off
P.S. for the record i'm not on a FOB i'm currently in the city of fallujah making the streets safer.

A thought on my mind

2005-10-20T23:40:00.000+09:00

well this post is really isn't going to be a rant persay but that the same time it will. I was sitting outside earlier today and I notice how the masses of iraqi's follow the same time of religion. It's put out through a loud speaker system which supposely is them reading from the koran 5 times a day everyday. Now me personally I don't speak iraqi so i'm screwed to try to understand what they say. Which might I add gets quite annoying i'm sure even some of the iraqi's have to find that annoying at 5 am when there trying to set ied's (improvised explosive devices) and what not on the road. Anywho it just made me think why are we as american's here for the day to day monotony of there lives. I think we should leave and let them sort there problems out thereselves, some of them have the intelligence possibly to make this country right again and maybe even possibly make this country what it was economy wise. Which brought me right into my next though what do I or anybody else get out of this whole "freeing iraq deal" we spend anywhere from 6 months to a year or even more here defending there freedom, not the u.s.a freedom's now i know on recent posts i stated that i defend your freedoms and what not. Well yes I do because I am in the military and can be called on to defend against anybody with ill interests towards the us. I just don't understand I suppose other than i'm being ordered too when I go home that it will really have made a difference in this country somebody is without a mother,father,brother,sister,relative because of other's and my actions. Does that make my job unworthy, no it doesn't it just always makes me ponder what is the greater good that will come out of this conflict because more tombs being placed at arlington national cementary at what cost? I can honestly say this answer I will never know. Lets take a step back in history about 60-65 years or so to WW2. The last great war america as a whole fought in, there were evils that we were fighting not just some country that we thought had WMD's or bad people in them. They were truly disturbed people who wanted nothing more than to rule the whole world they were willing to extingish a whole race of people because they were considered weak not because they had any real reasons just because they weren't arian german's (arian-blonde hair,blue eyes). The japanese now I could see where they attacked other nations they needed resources so once again evil the evil of money has shown it's face for the good of no one. So we get attacked and draw the great american war machine into the long 5 year war that would change history as we know for that time. Mind you the war had been going on for 3 years prior to our entry. Which brings me back to today's military yes alot smaller, but alot of more high tech easier to kill the "bad guy" technology. Which brings me to what i'm getting at here, in the 1980's we trained and armed the afghanistan's so they could fight the russians because they were a communist nation. Also in the 1980's we supplied both iran and iraq with fire arms and knowhow of killing people so they could fight each other in our interests.(our being the US's interests) and then lets skip ahead about 20 years to the present day where I stand currently a war torn and battered iraq. We came here for various reasons yes but people back home wonder why young american's are getting killed. Well did you ever bother to ask our leaders or maybe the previous leaders what was really going on with there millions of tax dollars? No because we as the masses were to busy worrying about our own little pathetic lives and the lives of celebrities that were getting bad mouthed by the press to pay attention to what was going on else where in the world. So I leave you with this note you want trouble teach a foreign nation how to do things and 20 years later it will come back to bite you in the ass. You want to fight a real war, let trouble come looking for you, don't go looking for trouble cause if it wanted you involved it would have pulled you in. Enough said i'm outtta here and i know nobody is going to comment so it's just me rambling on and on again for no particular reason.

meow?

2005-10-18T04:27:00.000+09:00

Hey folks I know my posts have been getting rather regular lately because i've had alot on my mind lately. I know i'm sure some people have gotten pissed off if they read it but you know that's one of the wonderful things about being a US citizen i can write what I want when i want it's called freedom of speech BITCHES! I defend that right so you know i think i will use it to slander if i so choose. So here i am still in the big sandbox, counting the months till i get out of here which is a little less than 5 by the way. So I suppose that's a good thing cause I get to go back to my better half soon. So i will leave on this note you fuckers who are against the war same on you i know you have your rights and what not but your son died not because he was drafted but because HE CHOSE TO! he died defending your FUCKING right to go out and there and try to slander our president and his decisions, don't be me wrong i don't want to be here just like the next man but i'm doing what my commander and chief tells me to do bottom line. Now mind you the president he's about as usually as a one legged man in an ass kicking competition. He is from texas and therefore should be excused on that reason because i've definitely noticed one thing about texans there cocky and alot of them are alot stupidier than the average human. It's like they breed dumb down there anywho i just don't like him cause he thinks he mr billy badass now don't get me wrong some of his ideas are good and what not but did we really need to outst saddam for the reasons that we did WMD's did we find any? Nope surely didn't but he's a bad man and we shall punish him. Oh well I think that the bird flu should just wipe out stupid people and all of the middle east cause they smell and there worthless sacks of shit as far as i'm concerned they can't even kill people right. We had a guy today that tried to bomb us and all he did is get blood all over the iraqi's truck stupid fucker. I bet even the devil is laughing at him going your a stupid fucker. Anywho i'm done for now. I'll fill ya in as the days continue cause I think our internet may go down for a little while soon we shall see. Well for now PEACE BITCHES!
Doc A signing off
live from iraq
P.S. if any material in here offends you in anyway,shape or form. Please comment or call this number 1(800)I DONT CARE thanks have a nice day.

well i'm just in a ranting mood

2005-10-12T22:39:00.000+09:00

Well another post I feel is much needed cruised up to baghdad for a couple days, which is all fine and dandy but not to be some colonel's bitch cause you know if you want us to drive all over baghdad in the most dangerous parts well you know what you can fuck yourself. You've had 4 people killed under your command cause you wanted them to go everywhere all the fucking time and quite frankly it's fucking stupid. Your a weak commander and should be hit with a 7.62 in the skull. To you 4 and the 20 or so i'm sorry you have a weak commander, and I hope to the guys of my crew that we can just make it till we leave this freakin place. Anywho on a lighter note i'm back in the house safe and sound and with a big smile on my face cause i like where I live (which for you idiots actually checking this site) NO I'M NOT GOING TO SAY WHERE I AM! so go bother somebody else. Well on another note of much annoyance I had to put on word verification on this site for those or yous that want to post comments cause quite frankly i'm not really interested in getting post on how these certain stocks are going to grow WOOO HOOO! i'm in iraq jackass i really could give two shits about the stock exchange i have more important things like hmmm lets see my life and the life of the guys I work with. So if I ever see you in person you best run cause i'm going to inflict pain on your computer for wasting my webspace. Anywho I feel better now that i've gotten those few things off my chest, I've found a very attractive/sweetheart personality girl from sc we've been talking alot and I look forward to hopefully getting to meet her sometime next year. I am almost done with the navy thing 10 months left WOOOOO!!! well until next time i'm going to jam so to all you readers out there I leave you with this
"go fuck yourself" I'm an asshole, and I support this message. LOL i saw that on a shirt I found it rather funny so if you don't like well read the quote. Anywho I'm outta here
Doc A Signing off
Live from Iraq

well i feel this is a much needed post for the stupidity of man

2005-10-06T20:45:00.000+09:00

Well folks here I am again. So i was reading an article on military.com (good site) about the military warning "combat bloggers" that they need to be careful what they put on there blogger site. Well i have this to say on that matter, if your stupid enough to put your unit's location,size, and tactical strengths then you know what you should be attacked cause your just plain fucking stupid and should be hit with the stupid stick several times. I mean yea i understand the reasoning behind that the whole operational security and what not, but some people should just not be allowed to post if there gonna be that stupid. I think a good way to punish them would be shocking them with 1000 volts on there finger tips maybe that'd get the point across to stop being stupid. I know that yes i've said what city i'm in but that's very vague and doesn't really narrow it down to where i'm at and I in no way shape or form post pictures that would show my location. So i say this in closing to the idiots of the military society your dumb and i hope you get attacked cause your stupid enough to share that kind of opsec info than frankly i don't know feel bad for that individual but i do feel bad for his/her unit, cause they get sucked into something somebody else caused. Anywho enough about the stupidity of man and his lack of common sense. I'm outta here.
Doc A signing off
Live from iraq

yea......

2005-09-28T18:32:00.000+09:00

well i've decided to post again a little bit i guess try to clear my plate. I fucked up hardcore last night. I am an asshole and that certain individual deserves better and hopefully will get better. We lost two guys the other day and a third was injuried pretty good, to the two guys sorry that you have to go home the way you are. What else is going on well it looks like soon we'll be moving to somewhere besides here which sucks I kind of like it here pretty safe right now. Well for the most part that is. Well folks only a little under 6 months to go and I'm out of this shithole and then 6 months later i'll be back to the land of the big px and easy living. Doing what I love to do minus the having to kill people and getting shot at all the time. Well I suppose i'm gonna just go now I don't have much more to say so for now i'm outta here take it easy folks.
Doc A signing off
Live from iraq

well this city just keeps going to shit

2005-09-10T17:52:00.000+09:00

Well today in fallujah news got awaken to the sounds of gernade attacks and an IED going off just a few blocks away from home. So we geared up not hoping to have to do anything but prepared to bring hell the insurgents front door step if need be. The marines were out of course like a pissed off hoard of ants, so we drove around nothing found so that's a good thing i suppose. what else is going on well i'm finally going to be starting to train me some iraqi's into medic's lets see if they got the smarts to do it. Hmm got my first month just about out of the way. Tomorrow is the day that I will never forget. Sept. 11th the day 343 men of honor lost there lives just doing there normal job. so I wrote a short little quote since I will not be able to be in new york to mourn. "To you, my lost brother. we will never forget your sorrows or your times that you enlightened your brother's with the grace of your jokes, and wisdom. I will always be out there hunting for the man who caused your family to lose so much and for what cost? No man other than yourself will ever know." The lights that "touched the heaven are no longer there" but we will never forget, for you are the hero in my eyes, and nobody can take that away." Well yet another day has come and gone here in iraq I can finally see the light in the end of tunnel as my time is soon to be completed in the U.S. Navy, to my brother's in arms be safe out and remember i'll always be watching over ya. I'm gonna miss you guys.
Well I suppose for now I shall sign off for the day.
Doc A outta here live from iraq.

well here I am

2005-08-27T04:31:00.001+09:00

Well i've been to my new unit for a week now and loving life not to shabby living conditions ya know everything is pretty darn good so i can't complain to overly much other than the hot and getting shot at alot conditions ya know same ol' same ol. what else is going on well not a whole lot just six more months in this hell hole and i'll be done here and six more months after that and I will be done completely in the navy YUT!! Well for now I'm outta here.
Doc A live from iraq signing off
P.S. if you would like my mailing address IM me @ emsjunkie2469 (AIM) or insert6758(yahoo)

well i'm back

2005-08-27T04:31:00.000+09:00

well finally here

2005-08-13T02:17:00.000+09:00

Yes I know i said I would be able to post once I got to the sandbox well I guess that I was wrong because I can as you can see access the internet which is quite nice if you ask me . Hmmm well finally got settled in with my unit pretty cool bunch of guys. I finally got away from the asshole chief we started off over here with, that motherfucker was getting on my freakin nerves. I swear to god he threatens to kick my ass again oh he is going to be in for a rude awakening. Anywho Well i can't really talk about a whole lot cause i don't know who is reading this page but I can say this. To that certain someone out there I miss you dearly and love ya lots. Well for now I'm outta here.
Doc A signing off live from OIF.

well the last post of the communist.

2005-08-01T11:48:00.000+09:00

Well folks my time to leave is very very quickly approaching. August 3rd to be exact and am I excited about it well somewhat but not at the same time. So i will leave this as a reminder to all of those I care about out there. Remember this I will never be very far away and I will not forget the good/bad times we've had together I will miss all of you very much but I will return sometime next year. I am slowly but surely closing in on my time for when I can throw up the universial peace sign and get the heck of dodge in my dodge. I will be coming home to ny sometime in march/april time frame. To everybody out there who may read this I will give you all my holiday greetings ahead of time because I will not be anywhere near home for thanksgiving/christmas/new years. SO eat some turkey/ham what ever it is you eat for me open some presents and ring in the new year with a smile on your face for me because I will be doing the same as best as I can while i'm over there. So for now I've ranted and put enough sad stuff in here to make even my cat cry so I will depart now silently as I did the first time I left for OIF. Well stay safe out there and remember Freedom isn't free.
Doc A signing off and biddin adue

well the date has come.

2005-07-25T17:55:00.000+09:00

Well the day I leave is soon approaching as I found out today my b-day to be exact. To where I go no man shall know. I got ask what took so long for me to meet such a wonderful girl. It was heaven just fell into my lap. She doesn't mind that I play video games, she loves me for who I am and how nice I am(yes thats right folks I'm a big teddy bear). All I can say is wow and I can't wait to actually meet you in person. You put a smile on my face even if I don't show it all the time trust me inside I have a grin ear to ear. Well I suppose I don't have a whole lot to talk about. I'm just glad I finally got a launch date I won't be back here till after may sometime. That my friends is an extremely long time. I get to take 30 days of leave as soon as I get back though which is mighty cool cause I really will deserve some leave after this adventure in my life. I got this program from one of the guys that I work with tells you how many days you have until you get out, I'm sitting at 420 days seems like an eternity away but if you think about it it's really not to long in the future. I can't wait to return to civilian life and go get my firefighter cert. Oh on the FF thing she doesn't mind that I want to do that for a job either which is freaking sweet cause she knows how dangerous it is but yet is still supportive of what I want to do with my life which is amazing. Well for now I shall stop prasing what I call my heaven luvs ya and I shall talks to all you folks laters.
Doc A outta here.

BLOG THIS!

2005-07-20T17:58:00.000+09:00

hey folks this may very well be one of my last few posts for I depart for Iraq in 8 days for 7 months so I don't know how much of the internet type stuff i'll have access too once i'm out there which I can't tell you guys. But hopefully i'll have a chance every now and then to get on. We shall see blah. Anywho I don't have a whole lot more to talk aboot so I shall depart to the land of the mcdonalds one last time for the night. So until next time I'm out.
Doc A signing off.

well what a weekend

2005-07-18T08:17:00.000+09:00

Hmmm what a weekend pretty uneventful other than saturday where I got pretty darn blitzed hadn't done that in a good while. What else I talked to one of my fav people in the world :-) My mom turned a year older yesterday I bought her a reciprocating saw(odd present yes) but that is what the mother wanted so that is what she got. Speaking of b-day's anybody who reads this and has a b-day coming up let me know. I know my b-day is fastly approaching *grumble* another year older and more hair is falling out (22 and already catching my dad who is 55)*grumble* Anywho I don't have a whole lot to post hopefully I have an eventful day at the firehouse had one on friday night so we'll see what today brings hopefully not a late night like friday was but eh who knows well until next the ipod and I are outta here.
Doc A signing off.

my current feelings towards alot of things in life.....

2005-07-15T20:54:00.000+09:00

Well this post is a bunch of blink 182 lyrics that kind of describe my feeling towards life,females,military just things in general.

Dysentery Gary
Got a lotta heart ache He's a fuckin' weasel His issues make my mind ache Wanna make a deal. 'Cause I love your little motions You do with your pigtails What a nice creation Worth another night in jail.
He's a player, diarrhea giver Tried to grow his hair out, friends were listening to Slayer I'd like to find him Friday night Hanging out with mom, trying on his father's tights.
Life just sucks, I lost the one I'm giving up, she found someone There's plenty more Girls are such a drag.
So all you little ladies Be sure to choose the right guys You'll come back to me maybe I'll shower you with lies.
Got a lotta heart ache He's a fuckin' weasel Decisions make my mind ache Wanna make a deal
Ease away the problems and the pain The girl chose the guy that makes you wanna kick and scream All along, you wish that she would stay Fuck the guy that took and ran away, yeah
He's a player, diarrhea giver Tried to grow his hair out, friends were listening to Slayer I'd like to find him Friday night Hanging out with mom and trying on his father's tights
Life just sucks, I lost the one I'm giving up, she found someone There's plenty more Girls are such a drag Fuck this place, I lost the warI hate you all, your mom's a whore Where's my dog? 'Cause girls are such a drag.

This next one is I feel so... by boxcar racer.

Sometimes

I wish I was brave

I wish I was stronger

I wish I could feel no pain

I wish I was young

I wish I would try

I wish I was honest

I wish I was you not I

'Cause

I feel so mad

I feel so angry

I feel so callous

So lost, confused again

I feel so cheap

So used, unfaithful

Let's start over

SometimesI wish I was smart

I wish I made cures for

How people are

I wish I had power

I wish I could leave

I wish I could change the world

For you and me

'CauseI feel so mad

I feel so angry

I feel so callous

So lost, confused again

I feel so cheap

So used, unfaithful

Let's start over

'CauseI feel so mad

I feel so angry

I feel so callous

So lost, confused again

I feel so cheap

So used, unfaithful

Let's start over

I feel so mad

I feel so angry

I feel so callous

So lost, confused again

I feel so cheap

So used, unfaithful

Let's start over

This is my my life in general right now. This one is Tiny Voices by boxcar racer.

I've been all pinched up since saturdayI've run my self dry of excellenceSixteen long years in-hale the bullshit inWhatever I said on saturdayWhatever I did I'll do it all againNineteen marks up wallsEach year one short fall ofTiny voices, make things harderEverybody will be let downEverybody will be let downWhat is this for ex-parking lotThe dreamers go buy they never stopTwenty plus 5 in let the youth cave inTiny voices, make things harderEverybody will be let downEverybody will be let downTiny voices make things harderTiny voices make things harderEverybody will be let downEverybody will be let downEverybody will be let down
Everybody will be let down

Well on a happier note I did finally get a relaxing day over here at the firehouse i also found out were going to be losing our new chief that we literally just got so i wonder what there gonna do now? Anywho I get to work here monday so I guess as of right now i'm not leaving on monday like they were telling me I really am starting to think i'm not even gonna go which wouldn't be a bad thing I wanna go home in dec and be a bum for a month cause yea I just want too. What else is going I guess I just felt like puttin some good songs to describe my feelings on alot of things because song does that best for me to anybody out there that would take offense to this I'm sorry just today I don't have a heart...... Oh well for this guy i'm off to go play video games before I crash out for the evening.

Colin a.k.a. 'doc A' is outta here.

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what a day.......

2005-07-13T17:05:00.000+09:00

Well my day started off already on a wrong foot woke up late for work boy did that suck i didn't in trouble oh well still start to a bad day. The day just seemed to progressively get worse I went through the day just losing my mind literally i couldn't think at all it sucked. I went to go pick up this new guy were suppose to be getting and of course his plane was delayed yet again so i wasted another day going over there and coming back. I find out that a certain female has feelings for me but ran away cause she was afraid of the pain and fighting and anything else that would happen and that was the homerun hitter to just break me down. I just want to say to that certain female that I still have feelings for ya I just don't know how to show them cause I didn't till just about 45 mins ago know how you felt. I'm sorry if I caused any problems between you and your friend. If you want to talk before I leave please let me know I would be more than willing to hash things out as best as I can. What else is going on well i'm still waiting on this afghan order to come out so I can freaking leave this place is driving me up a wall of bricks and i'm gonna end up killing somebody I swear. Anywho I don't suppose I have a whole more going on so i'll just shut up and crawl back into my little hole people usually call life and bitch and complain some more at a date yet to be determined. Well for now i'm outta here.
Doc A signing off.
P.S. pedro hey shut your freaking mouth i miss the ol' guy because when it came to getting shit done he got it done unlike my current 1st class who only gives a shit about his fellow flips leaves us white and darker skinned guys out to fucking hang. If your a flip i'm sorry i just dispise them sometimes they make me sick anywho I'm out enjoy leave dude.

well stop bitchin really

2005-07-06T18:45:00.000+09:00

Well I decided to throw up a new post since certain people decided that they wanted TO BITCH haha about me not having a post on here for a "long time" well lets see here what has happened recently in my life well yesterday my car decided to eat it's fan belt so 4 hours later and a emptier wallet. however on a good note my car is happy now I changed out the radiator fluid as well so i'm sure the radiator is happy. My a/c runs 1100 times better now. What else is going on well I suppose i'm utterly confused about a certain few situations going on in my life right I just wish I could be home in the U.S.A. instead of on this shit hole called okinawa, it's just very hard to resolve certain issues at hand when your so far away and for the I apolgize anywho I tweaked my back again so i'm swearing and looking like i'm 55 today which is not a pleasant feeling as my dad reminds me everyday of. Well folks i don't really have a whole lot more to talk about I'm glad however that a certain individual that I used to work with is gone. The clinic is already a quieter place without him. I do miss him in ways though that I will say yea as I said earlier i'm all sorts of confused right now i just wish I had a magic stick to fix everything and make everyone important in my life happy cause i'm never happy so what does it matter anywho. So on that note as the 311 plays I depart to my car to eat me some Mcdonald's.
Doc Eightball outta here

word bitches

2005-06-22T17:46:00.000+09:00

Hey what's going on around these parts eh??? It's gettin FREAKIN hot out here in okinawa japan which I suppose is a nice thing but sucks for us thick blooded northerner's who only know snow and cold. Well suppose I can't complain it's beats iraq that's for damn sure. What else is a goin on in here umm yes still hating my roommate that hasn't changed I'm over sleeping my alarm so not to self make sure you buy a new alarm clock this next paycheck or something along those lines. I need one that would literally wake up the dead or maybe I need to just sneak a cat in here that would wake me up by meowing at me because it was her feeding time. Well i know the cat thing isnt gonna happen so eh what ya gonna do. What else lets see I wish somebody that reads this would fill me in on what is going on around the hockey world. Is there or isn't there going to be a hockey season this year??? I would like to know so i can plan on catching a game whenever it it I do get to go home to good ol ny again. Well folks I suppose for now i'm off to go fight people with my bowstaff cause I have skills in that.
Doc A out

yea....

2005-06-19T19:12:00.000+09:00

Well got back from wake island on friday (other than the plane ride) had an excellent time i will say a week off to do nothing really work for a couple of hours and then just chill out for the rest of the time it was FREAKIN AWESOME!!! well on another note as you saw before that I had quit smoking well i'm almost done with the patches so i'm pretty stoked about that cause these things are gettin annoying let me tell you. I gotta go back to work tommorrow which sucks but eh oh well. I have to put this out there because this is my site to rant so if this individual reads it oh well i don't give a fuck. I hate my roommate with a flying passion gettins on my freakin nerves let me tell you I come back from wake and all my food is eaten which I wasn't happy about and he just assumes that he is gonna get a ride to where ever he needs to go and that he can just use my phone whenever the fuck he wants well I got a news flash for ya buddy my niceness is about to smack you in the face and get real ugly real FREAKIN quick!!! Anywho enough about that I suppose I'll get out of here for now I'm glad to be back but at the same time I wish that I was still out there because it was so much easier to deal with no rain and really sunny days a heck of alot easier than this shit hole island people call okinawa.
Well Doc A outta here!

hiddy-ho neighbors

2005-06-08T00:18:00.000+09:00

Well hey folks i'm back again and now I have my special someone :-) i'm finally happy first time in about 9 months long time awaited yea much needed stressor out of my life I suppose. Well anywho I found out today that my sandbox order so I don't have to worry about going to down the line. So i'm enjoying the priviledge of being an e-4 now i have still yet to get paided as an e-4 but hey it will all come soon enough. What else is going on summer is around here on the island of okinawa. Were getting all these new mother fuckers here in 1st Stinger battery its quite funny got me a slew of new cd's system of the down(mesmorize),oasis(forget the name),dmb(stand up),coldplay(x&y),mudyane,limp bizkit. Well def enjoying the new tunes relaxing to some cold play right now Well for now I suppose for now i'm out so until next time.
Doc A outta here.

hmm a good note to add

2005-05-29T12:30:00.000+09:00

Well friday I got the whole frocking ceramony done which was pretty freakin sweet. I went out that nite and got blitzed out me mind as i usually do on a friday but oh boy did i pay the price remind me never again to mix budweiser E , budweiser,and jack and cokes and 7 jello shots in a row bad outcome such as waking up with a not pleasant headache. But it was all fun hangin out with the guys, as you can see the girl situation over here is way less than favorable. Hmm whatelse is going on well went out to the field for a week yea that was utterly boring all i did was smoke,eat and sleep. OH and on a good note i did quit the smoking thing finally so i'm pretty happy bout that one as well. What else is going on well no word as of yet on weather or not i'm going to the big sandbox I guess I shall find out on tuesday or wednesday eh who knows ya know. Hmmmmmmmmmmmmm well just sitting here listening to some modest mouse killin time before the halo tourney which i hope we win cause there is 125 dollars with my name on it if so WOOT WOOT. umm still wishing i had an awesome girl over here I could go spend my days with and do to whatever her and my heart's desire but here I am alone and bored of this stinkin island. Oh well on that note i'm off like a well something that goes off. POOF
doc A (hm3 type) outta here.

well pretty much set in stone

2005-05-20T23:25:00.000+09:00

Well on a great GREAT note today I FINALLY picked up HM3 which i'm freakin happier than you can believe about it only took almost 4 years in the service to finally get that. WOOO HOOO!!!! working on the g/f type situation and course it comes with perfect timing. I'm also pretty much set in stone heading to the "sandbox" next month which i'm not to excited aboot but hey what are you gonna do ya know it's only a 6-9 month order so hey i'll make some money well i'm over there anywho for now i'm out. I'll fill ya all in when i get details.
Doc A signin off.

well bored as usual

2005-05-12T12:19:00.000+09:00

Yea it's the 12th of may and here I sit bored out me mind at the firehouse, the land of dead. We never get any calls except for bullshit fire alarms all the other districts get cool calls but not us. OH WELL what are you to do. I'm finally get paided the right amt of money again thank god for that about freakin time ya know I was sick and tired of not getting paided because SOMEBODY screwed up, just need to pay the ol' bills off and put myself on cruise control while i'm here. I'm currently listening to blink 182(not because i'm depressed)(usually my depressing music), just felt like some blink. On another note just got done watching band of brother's excellent mini series Kudos to HBO and steven speilburg/tom hanks for putting that together awesome job. Hmmm what else is going on I can finally see an end nearin to my time in the military as I approach my time next year Sept 18th 2006, D-day for Mr. Arthur I will be a civilian again and sometimes it scares me I don't know why but i've gotten used to a way of life and i'm going to be starting my life all over again, don't get me wrong I want out but i'm wondering how my transition will go. I know it will take time with the things i've seen and all my friends asking questions, I say this unless you've been in mine or my brother's in arms shoes there is nothing I can tell you that will make you truly understand how we function what we do. I don't do the job because I want to be a hero cause quite frankly hero's get killed. I do it for the guy next to me because him and I have shed blood together he has earned the right to be called my brother. To my brother's haines and siv. If you two decide to stay hey good on you both your both excellent sailors/doc's and let nobody tell you otherwise, I do however sincerely hope we keep in touch and get together and chill like old times. I miss hanging out with you guys I in my mind have lost two brothers and there are days I feel lost because I don't have you two around. :-\ Well on that note I suppose I shall sit here and be bored senseless in the firehouse, so until next time remember, i'll be here and remember help is never far away.
Doc A signin off.

hey what's going on

2005-05-10T22:30:00.000+09:00

Well it's rather interesting at work these days only two of the worker bees are there which kind of sucks but eh what ya gonna do. What i wouldn't give for one good night's sleep I tell ya this no sleep thing definitely gettin old. I found out that me truck is getting the rents problem so i'll need to go back here in the somewhat near future to fix her up cause I know she just misses her owner which I understand. What else is goin on in the pathetic excuse people call life. Sitting here listening to trapt wondering why i hadn't bought this cd sooner pretty darn good cd I tell ya. what else hmmmm daddy leaves in less than two months (if you don't know who daddy is read some of my previous posts). I know that he's a good guy but sometimes he needs a good beatin with a wet noodle. or as they say in narc, "how bout option 2. you give us the money or we beat you like a baby fuckin seal" (narc is a good game for xbox) Yea definitely been playing that game some and xbox alot kickin ass in halo 2 I am one of the better players in this barracks I will reach out on that one and say that. Well I suppose until next time remember george bush needs to go back to high school to learn how to read and write. (further details later) And I really could use a fresh bottle of yuengling. I do indeed miss that beer MMM MMM GOOD!!!
Well until next time to all my corpsman buddies (remember to say the S lol) hope your doing well out there.
Doc A OUTTA here
LATERZ.
P.S. - Vote for pedro.

Well a little story here and something that US corpsman live by

2005-05-02T23:37:00.000+09:00

CorpsmanIn August of 1942,
the first major USMC assault landings against the Japanese Empire occurred in the Solomon Islands, Pacific. The island chosen for the invasion was Guadalcanal.As they moved inland, four Marines were walking point into the jungle. Advancing into an open area without cover, they came under heavy fire from the entrenched Japanese. All four Marines were wounded but managed to crawl into a shell crater, about fifty yards from where they had emerged from the jungle.A Hospital Corpsman ran from cover into the crater with the wounded Marines, and ran back to cover, under fire. Having dressed the wounds of the Marine, he sprinted back for another, only this time he was hit. Not stopping to dress his own wounds, he carried the second Marine to cover receiving a second wound. After giving aid to the Marine, the Corpsman was hit for a third time going into the crater. Staggering toward the treeline with the third Marine, he was again struck by enemy fire.When the third Marine's wounds were dressed, the Corpsman started after the last Marine in the crater. The Corpsman still had not stopped to care for his own wounds. In a final valiant effort, he stumbled toward the crater, where he was brought down by concentrated enemy machine gun fire. He lunged forward into the crater falling across the fourth Marine, finally giving up his life.Reaching up to his own bleeding wounds, the Marine wrote on the back of the Corpsman's bullet riddled shirt,
"WHERE ANGELS AND MARINES FEAR TO TREAD, THERE YOU'LL FIND A CORPSMAN DEAD."
This was that dying Marine's final tribute to his shipmate's supreme sacrifice in fulfilling his oath, "TO AID THE WOUNDED, IN THEIR MOMENT OF NEED."
A Corpsman's Prayer
Grant me, oh Lord, for the coming events;Enough knowledge to cope and some plain common sense.Be at our side on those nightly patrols;And be merciful judging our vulnerable souls.Make my hands steady and as sure as a rock;when the others go down with a wound or in shock.Let me be close, when they bleed in the mud;With a tourniquet handy to save precious blood.Here in the jungle, the enemy near;Even the corpsman can't offer much lightness and cheer.Just help me, oh Lord, to save lives when I can;Because even out there is merit in man.If It's Your will, make casualties light;And don't let any die in the murderous night.These are my friends I'm trying to save;They are frightened at times, but You know they are brave.Let me not fail when they need so much;But to help me serve with a compassionate touch.Lord, I'm no hero -- my job is to heal;And I want You to know Just how helpless I feel.Bring us back safely to camp with dawn;For too many of us are already gone.Lord bless my friends If that's part of your plan;And go with us tonight, when we go out again.
Author Unknown

well hey again

2005-04-26T14:48:00.000+09:00

Sitting here on leave bored out me mind which isn't a bad thing cause it's 10 days away from daddy a.k.a. chief three more months and he's gone and we got our new chief which will be pretty bad ass cause he's the type of chief i liked working with at my last command. Listening me to some good ol 311 i love these guys i can never get enough of them. What else is going on in the world of colin well i "should" be getting a visitor here maybe in a month or two it will be good to see her again regardless of what may happen fun will be had by all parties involved. WOOOOO! anywho well i don't gots a whole lot to write about so i'm out for now laters.
Doc A outta here.

well i suppose it can get better

2005-04-12T11:45:00.000+09:00

Well shot down again by another chic who i was interested in, I seem to be too good of friends with all the chic's i'm interested in to even have a shot at getting anywhere with them which sucks but i suppose is a good thing too because i have people to hang out with. I'm over here at the firehouse standing duty as I type this right now and boy is it boring I wish that we could get a call or something cause i'm bored out of my freaking mind over here. I'm glad that my sis got her good news hopefully she gets to see her man her real soon. I hope that I will be able to enjoy my leave that is just around the corner and maybe get lucky WHO knows cause i seem to just be walking around sticking my foot in my mouth which sucks but hey such is life sometimes. Oh well less than 24 hours to go of boredom(more than likely) and i'll have a day off OH YES that's right I get to lay around and do absoluetly nothing it will be definitely a great thing I don't have to give smallpox shots I don't have to deal with my chief(who is really pushing getting a swift kick in the ass). I will just mill around and collect dust play video games and watch movies ain't nothing wrong with that so until next remember, no matter how bad life sucks and things get you down there is always a good day somewhere in your future. Life is to short to go about pouting and be unhappy with yourself hey every once in a while is cool. But smile I always try to even if i've had a absolutely shitty day cause hey it's always gonna get worse before it gets better. So keep your stick on the ice.
Doc A outta here
P.S. Siv i haven't forgotten about you i've just been busy so i'm SORRY that the fat kid joke offended you but you a big kid i'm sure you'll get over it. LATERS.

Well hey this is pissin me off now

2005-04-01T12:05:00.000+09:00

Hey folks whats good in the hood??? Well i gotta say WHISKEY TANGO FOXTROT OVER!!! on a certain situation in my life right now i wish i could just get the truth instead of this damn game playing that is going on right now, it's closing on april 4th REAL quick like and i still have no answer from you and i would really like one cause i'm getting sick and tired of playing tag with you. Anywho enough of that another week done and over with at work thank god i'm getting a new car i'll post some pictures up here when i get it all taken care of, which reminds me how much of a headache that was just to get the process started to get it taken care of. Anywho what else is going on around here lets see not a whole lot which i suppose is a good thing so umm just livin life counting down the days till i'm done in this hellhole people call okinawa. HMMMMM i'm taking me some leave this month hopefully it will be in ny i'm undecided on weather or not i wanna go home or just stay here so we'll see, i'll make that decision when time comes around. Surprise the parents hehe that would be funny what else is going on. Umm i should be picking up HM3 here in a few weeks whenever the results come out which will be sweet. I'm doing pretty good at this command possibility of me going back to the big sandbox again which i'm not to thrilled aboot but eh what ya gonna do i'm in the navy so i guess i gotta deal with it. Well I suppose I shall write more sometime in the future so until then. I'm out like the fat kid in gym class.
Doc A(eightball) outta here

well then again i appear out of the blue

2005-03-17T23:16:00.000+09:00

Hey folks how are things these days i've been pretty busy so i haven't been able to post to much these days but I suppose I shall try to post more frequently. I took my HM3 exam today and i felt that i did pretty good so we shall see here in a few weeks what the results are, I mean jeeze i've only taken it four times now so you would figure that I would pass it on this one with the amount of points I have already before the test is even equated into the system. Well what else is going on the summer is fast approaching here in okinawa and it seems that the weather is not going along with the norm it's I guess pretty cold for here for the past few weeks. I think it's great cause I can wear shorts and sandals and it's no big thing. I'm here alone drinking me some green beer cause you know what day it is, THE GREAT ST. PATRICKS DAY!!!! WOOOOO!!! So yeah i've downed a six pack and feelin pretty good but drunk just a tiny buzz got me a new game today which is hot GT4 for those of you who have no clue what that is, it's Gran turismo 4 which is a sequal to the GT3 which was a sweet game and this one is even better. Well I suppose i'm going to call it a night cause it's been a utterly long day FUCKING CHIEF I HATE YOU!!!! anywho enough of me ranting later folks i'm out like an 80's hairstyle.
Doc A outta here
P.S. Siv I plan on shootin you an email or something here pretty soon once things finally calm themselves down here. I hope things are going good for you bro take it easy.
Haines if your out there somewhere god speed with you I miss ya bro I was looking at some old pics of the three of us Siv,you and myself chilling doing what we do best causing trouble and it def makes me miss the ol hellhole. Later dude.

hey folks

2005-03-07T16:50:00.000+09:00

Well I know it's been a good while since i've posted so i figured i would throw something up here for the fellow communists to look at remember MOTHER RUSSIA!!! ... lol anywho there isn't to much going on in my life just chilling working and trying to get my back feeling better cause it's been all sorts of screwed up lately which kind of sucks but hey what are you gonna do except for take meds and try to take it easy on it. Well for now I suppose i'm out so i shall talk to yous all later.
Doc A outta here

well who knows anymore

2005-02-20T00:51:00.000+09:00

Well as you may have seen in my last post that I tried to ask a girl out for a date and got SHOT down like a 747. Well on valentine's day this chic had the audasity to come up to me and say i wish i had a valentines I said hey bitch did you forgot the fact that i asked you out on a date and would have been your valentines gladly but oh well what are you going to do you try to be nice to them and they stab you in the eye with a sodering iron i guess she'll get hers in the end. What else is going on in my life these here days well i just dropped 500 bones on the ol car to get it worthy to pass the damn inspection here in okinawa that's awfully expensive i tell ya. Hmm anything else well lets see i haven't been sober for the past 3 days so i suppose i'm tryin to set some record or something we'll see. Anywho I don't have a whole lot to write about so until the next time I decide to get on here and rant about my life I shall talk to you all later and remember it will always get worse before it finally gets better, but it will eventually get better.
Doc A OUTTA HERE

yet another lonely valentines

2005-02-14T00:07:00.000+09:00

Well yet another valentines day has arrived and yet again i'm alone and single without someone to enjoy it with. What else is going on well my eye has been bothering me pretty bad lately and i don't quite know why but oh well i suppose it will get better eventually right?? or it will just fall out either way it's all good. I get to work all sorts of long hours this week YAY how thrilling ya know just what I want to do all week but it's ok cause it's payday week with is def a good thing cause I got shit I gotta get paided. I miss the touch of a girl's hand against my head ever so soft and she rubs her hand through my hand, or the feelin of my lips touching hers as we kiss the night away, just a simple hug where the vibe of her love for me and my love for her flows freely. Well I suppose my time will come eventually but tomorrow or anytime soon from what I can see. Well I suppose that's enough of my whining and moping. i'll leave with the lyrics to this song. GOOD CHARLOTTE-CHANGE
I am lost in the see-thru, I think you lost yourself too, Throughout all of this confusion, I hope I somehow get to you, I practiced all the things I'd say, To tell you how I feel, And when I finally get my chance, It all seems so surreal, 'Cause from the first time I saw you, I only thought about you,
I didn't know you, I wanted to hold onto, The things you'd never say to me, 'Cause you said [Chorus]You can't change the way you feel, I could never do that, I could never do that, But you can't tell me this ain't real, 'Cause this is real And you would see right through that, In the end it's all I've got, So I'm gonna hold onto that, So I'm gonna hold on and on and on and on, [Chorus Ends]Now you've got me watching your eyes, Got me waiting just to see, If it goes the way it never will, Your eyes are watching me, and now you've got me thinking 'bout, The first time that I met you, Standing in a crowded room, But I could only see you, And I hope my words will get through, 'Cause now I can't forget you, I want to tell you, If only I could reach you, And make you feel this way, But you said...

Well this week has finally reached it's end

2005-02-11T17:32:00.000+09:00

See title above and you'll better understand why i'm so exhausted that it's not even funny. We were all pulling at least 17 hour days since last sunday and yes it does get a bit old after a while. Well in other news I asked this chic out the other day and she said sure lets go do something so i asked her today when would be a good time for her and yeah I got shot like an enemy aircraft. It kind of pissed me off but hey what are you going to do. I would like to quote my father and say what he always says to me "there are plently more fish in the sea". Hmm whatelse to blurb about well i FINALLY got my cavities filled pain is good but after the pain wears off it's all good cause now my teeth don't hurt. I get to finally I think enjoy a weekend i'm gonna go get shitfaced tonight to forget about my bad day I know it's a stupid reason too, but do ask me if i even care???................... Well i thought about it and it's still definitely a no so yup me and a beer bottle are gonna be good friends today. Well i suppose that's all for now so until next time. Keep your stick on the ice.
Doc A out

well it's been a few

2005-02-07T22:20:00.000+09:00

Hey folks what's going on in the old world we choose to call the internet. I'm just sitting here talking to a few people online and listening to some loud angry music(fear factory). Well whatelse is going on as i'm sure most of you either watched or saw that the patriots pulled the win out of there hat to clinch the superbowl(not that i was surprised that they won) i kind of wished philly had won but hey what are you gonna do. I went out and got blitzed for the last three nights and oh boy my liver has been yelling at me for the past few days. The lack of sleep probably hasn't helped much other than when the alcohol has forced me into a sleep enduced coma ya know good stuff don't even remember going to bed but yea somehow i always seem to make it there. I got these good smelling candels today and yea they are awesome. I dont have a whole lot to talk aboot so i suppose i'll actually try to go to sleep sober and see what happens i doubt i will actually get to sleep but hey ya never know. Later
Doc A out.

Well I suppose

2005-02-03T23:05:00.000+09:00

Well went out to the field for a few days and yea bored out of my mind which mind you isn't a bad thing because it means that people aren't getting hurt which is definitely a good thing. Well whatelse is going on in the ever exciting life of colin. Lets see here well hmm single as single gets which sucks but i suppose is nice in and about itself. Whatelse I extended here at okinawa japan till my getting out of the navy date, hey it came with a nice bonus so i didn't feel like going someplace else. I'm tired but not tired enough to sleep which definitely sucks horseballs. Oh i wanted to comment and say if you don't like my language on my website well why don't you check out someone else's website eh cause you know what I frankly just don't care. To my compadres in crime Siv, Haines I hope both of you are doing ok out there and I definitely miss hanging out with you guys and doing all the stupid shit that we used to do. To my buddies back home I envy you and all the snow you guys have gotten recently I wish I could get some of that stuff. Hmm whatelse to talk about well nothing overly exciting happening over here in the land of the short people who don't speak my language. Well I suppose i'll try the whole sleep thing. Cinthya I know you def ain't reading this right now but I hope that bootcamp is going well for ya and i miss talking to you. To my big sis Pam thanks again for that lifesaving thing you did for me a couple of days ago it made the difference. Well to everybody else out there. Hi Well Doc A is out of here like a dress on prom night.
LATTA!

another long day

2005-01-29T22:39:00.000+09:00

Well today was rather boring and uneventful other than the fight with the girl. I got really drunk last night at no cost to me which was really sweet. I gotta work again tomorrow which isn't to overly fun. I don't have a whole lot to say other than well nothing I really don't wanna be here anymore and I would give anything to be back in the states. A quot from a song that i really like bout me from blink 182. "I would wish upon a star, but that star it doesn't shine, so read my short story, a short story of a lonely guy." Well that's bout all i gots to say this evening so i'm outte.
Doc A gone like a dress on prom night
Sigh

well another day

2005-01-26T23:58:00.000+09:00

Well lets see here what fun and exciting happened to today in my life well I did absolutely nothing just sat around and collected dust wishing I was back in good ol ny where there is lots of snow right now. I wish I could be running me some ems or being starting my paramedic classes BUT NO i'm still in the US navy. I have exactly 1 year 6 months and 5 days left in this pathetic existance i call the navy life. I shall return to the real world where I can do what I want when I feel like, i'll be able to grow out my goatee and not have to worry bout shaving it. I will just be plain happy again maybe if i'm lucky enough i'll find a girl and i won't have to worry bout losing her because i have to move 3-5 months later because the navy decides hey guess what you get a free ticket to the persian gulf have a good time. Anywho enough of that soap box I believe it is another way that the american government forces communism into peoples life. I do a completely different and somewhat more dangerous job that alot of other navy ratings and yup we all get paided the exact same thing. I really sometimes wonder how the one works out to be fair but I can't question it because if I did I would be considered a "rebel" or a "bad man" and god forbid people go around blabbing there mouths off about something like that. Well anywho i'm gone for today got another fun and exciting day of working and doing absolutely nothing again. WOOO HOOO!!!
Doc is gone.

Well lets see here

2005-01-26T01:20:00.000+09:00

Well Folks I suppose it's been a good while since i've even had a post up on this here thingy that would be because my normal site decided it wanted to take a gernade in the server and die on me so I had to go make my own. SO where to start here. Well you like my title catchy eh. If you don't like it well you can rot in hell and die cause you know what i frankly don't give a freakin damn. So it seems we'll fill you in since Christmas day since that was the last time i had a post up. Hmmmm what happened since then well I went on a heart attack call in ny which sucked for the guy but i had a good time other than the 25 mins of cpr i gots to do. I flew back to okinawa on the 29th rather uneventful flight. I met some new people here female types for a while i thought that they didn't exist. Well pretty good friends they come and they go but remember i'll be just a call away. Well i finally fixed my little japper car so it can pass it's gay inspection that it has to pass. So until next time YOUR ALL COMMUNISTS!!! MUHAHAHAHAHA . On a seperate note to all my fellow listeners out there i hope ya all come back to this site and check it out it's going to be improving everyday as i get my edumacation on web writing again. Well for now Doc A is outte.

Well bob i think you hit the right switch

2005-01-25T14:19:00.000+09:00

Well it seems to be up and runnin pretty good now which makes me happy. I added a picture as you can see and the two audio things below one is a communist talking and the other one is about my job. Well i'm bored over here in japan if you want to talk to me and your just a random passerbyer by all means shoot me an im if i'm home i'm on AIM so just im me up. Well for now later and don't forget life's a garden. dig it.

My job descprition

2005-01-25T10:31:00.001+09:00

This is my communist war lord

2005-01-25T10:31:00.000+09:00

2005-01-25T08:35:00.000+09:00

This is Me in Nyc Lower Manhatten doing what i love to do the most.