well the date has come.

Well the day I leave is soon approaching as I found out today my b-day to be exact. To where I go no man shall know. I got ask what took so long for me to meet such a wonderful girl. It was heaven just fell into my lap. She doesn't mind that I play video games, she loves me for who I am and how nice I am(yes thats right folks I'm a big teddy bear). All I can say is wow and I can't wait to actually meet you in person. You put a smile on my face even if I don't show it all the time trust me inside I have a grin ear to ear. Well I suppose I don't have a whole lot to talk about. I'm just glad I finally got a launch date I won't be back here till after may sometime. That my friends is an extremely long time. I get to take 30 days of leave as soon as I get back though which is mighty cool cause I really will deserve some leave after this adventure in my life. I got this program from one of the guys that I work with tells you how many days you have until you get out, I'm sitting at 420 days seems like an eternity away but if you think about it it's really not to long in the future. I can't wait to return to civilian life and go get my firefighter cert. Oh on the FF thing she doesn't mind that I want to do that for a job either which is freaking sweet cause she knows how dangerous it is but yet is still supportive of what I want to do with my life which is amazing. Well for now I shall stop prasing what I call my heaven luvs ya and I shall talks to all you folks laters.
Doc A outta here.

BLOG THIS!

hey folks this may very well be one of my last few posts for I depart for Iraq in 8 days for 7 months so I don't know how much of the internet type stuff i'll have access too once i'm out there which I can't tell you guys. But hopefully i'll have a chance every now and then to get on. We shall see blah. Anywho I don't have a whole lot more to talk aboot so I shall depart to the land of the mcdonalds one last time for the night. So until next time I'm out.
Doc A signing off.

well what a weekend

Hmmm what a weekend pretty uneventful other than saturday where I got pretty darn blitzed hadn't done that in a good while. What else I talked to one of my fav people in the world :-) My mom turned a year older yesterday I bought her a reciprocating saw(odd present yes) but that is what the mother wanted so that is what she got. Speaking of b-day's anybody who reads this and has a b-day coming up let me know. I know my b-day is fastly approaching *grumble* another year older and more hair is falling out (22 and already catching my dad who is 55)*grumble* Anywho I don't have a whole lot to post hopefully I have an eventful day at the firehouse had one on friday night so we'll see what today brings hopefully not a late night like friday was but eh who knows well until next the ipod and I are outta here.
Doc A signing off.

my current feelings towards alot of things in life.....

Well this post is a bunch of blink 182 lyrics that kind of describe my feeling towards life,females,military just things in general.

Dysentery Gary
Got a lotta heart ache He's a fuckin' weasel His issues make my mind ache Wanna make a deal. 'Cause I love your little motions You do with your pigtails What a nice creation Worth another night in jail.
He's a player, diarrhea giver Tried to grow his hair out, friends were listening to Slayer I'd like to find him Friday night Hanging out with mom, trying on his father's tights.
Life just sucks, I lost the one I'm giving up, she found someone There's plenty more Girls are such a drag.
So all you little ladies Be sure to choose the right guys You'll come back to me maybe I'll shower you with lies.
Got a lotta heart ache He's a fuckin' weasel Decisions make my mind ache Wanna make a deal
Ease away the problems and the pain The girl chose the guy that makes you wanna kick and scream All along, you wish that she would stay Fuck the guy that took and ran away, yeah
He's a player, diarrhea giver Tried to grow his hair out, friends were listening to Slayer I'd like to find him Friday night Hanging out with mom and trying on his father's tights
Life just sucks, I lost the one I'm giving up, she found someone There's plenty more Girls are such a drag Fuck this place, I lost the warI hate you all, your mom's a whore Where's my dog? 'Cause girls are such a drag.

This next one is I feel so... by boxcar racer.

Sometimes

I wish I was brave

I wish I was stronger

I wish I could feel no pain

I wish I was young

I wish I would try

I wish I was honest

I wish I was you not I

'Cause

I feel so mad

I feel so angry

I feel so callous

So lost, confused again

I feel so cheap

So used, unfaithful

Let's start over

Let's start over

SometimesI wish I was smart

I wish I made cures for

How people are

I wish I had power

I wish I could leave

I wish I could change the world

For you and me

'CauseI feel so mad

I feel so angry

I feel so callous

So lost, confused again

I feel so cheap

So used, unfaithful

Let's start over

Let's start over

'CauseI feel so mad

I feel so angry

I feel so callous

So lost, confused again

I feel so cheap

So used, unfaithful

Let's start over

Let's start over

I feel so mad

I feel so angry

I feel so callous

So lost, confused again

I feel so cheap

So used, unfaithful

Let's start over

Let's start over

This is my my life in general right now. This one is Tiny Voices by boxcar racer.

I've been all pinched up since saturdayI've run my self dry of excellenceSixteen long years in-hale the bullshit inWhatever I said on saturdayWhatever I did I'll do it all againNineteen marks up wallsEach year one short fall ofTiny voices, make things harderEverybody will be let downEverybody will be let downWhat is this for ex-parking lotThe dreamers go buy they never stopTwenty plus 5 in let the youth cave inTiny voices, make things harderEverybody will be let downEverybody will be let downTiny voices make things harderTiny voices make things harderEverybody will be let downEverybody will be let downEverybody will be let down
Everybody will be let down

Well on a happier note I did finally get a relaxing day over here at the firehouse i also found out were going to be losing our new chief that we literally just got so i wonder what there gonna do now? Anywho I get to work here monday so I guess as of right now i'm not leaving on monday like they were telling me I really am starting to think i'm not even gonna go which wouldn't be a bad thing I wanna go home in dec and be a bum for a month cause yea I just want too. What else is going I guess I just felt like puttin some good songs to describe my feelings on alot of things because song does that best for me to anybody out there that would take offense to this I'm sorry just today I don't have a heart...... Oh well for this guy i'm off to go play video games before I crash out for the evening.

Colin a.k.a. 'doc A' is outta here.

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what a day.......

Well my day started off already on a wrong foot woke up late for work boy did that suck i didn't in trouble oh well still start to a bad day. The day just seemed to progressively get worse I went through the day just losing my mind literally i couldn't think at all it sucked. I went to go pick up this new guy were suppose to be getting and of course his plane was delayed yet again so i wasted another day going over there and coming back. I find out that a certain female has feelings for me but ran away cause she was afraid of the pain and fighting and anything else that would happen and that was the homerun hitter to just break me down. I just want to say to that certain female that I still have feelings for ya I just don't know how to show them cause I didn't till just about 45 mins ago know how you felt. I'm sorry if I caused any problems between you and your friend. If you want to talk before I leave please let me know I would be more than willing to hash things out as best as I can. What else is going on well i'm still waiting on this afghan order to come out so I can freaking leave this place is driving me up a wall of bricks and i'm gonna end up killing somebody I swear. Anywho I don't suppose I have a whole more going on so i'll just shut up and crawl back into my little hole people usually call life and bitch and complain some more at a date yet to be determined. Well for now i'm outta here.
Doc A signing off.
P.S. pedro hey shut your freaking mouth i miss the ol' guy because when it came to getting shit done he got it done unlike my current 1st class who only gives a shit about his fellow flips leaves us white and darker skinned guys out to fucking hang. If your a flip i'm sorry i just dispise them sometimes they make me sick anywho I'm out enjoy leave dude.

well stop bitchin really

Well I decided to throw up a new post since certain people decided that they wanted TO BITCH haha about me not having a post on here for a "long time" well lets see here what has happened recently in my life well yesterday my car decided to eat it's fan belt so 4 hours later and a emptier wallet. however on a good note my car is happy now I changed out the radiator fluid as well so i'm sure the radiator is happy. My a/c runs 1100 times better now. What else is going on well I suppose i'm utterly confused about a certain few situations going on in my life right I just wish I could be home in the U.S.A. instead of on this shit hole called okinawa, it's just very hard to resolve certain issues at hand when your so far away and for the I apolgize anywho I tweaked my back again so i'm swearing and looking like i'm 55 today which is not a pleasant feeling as my dad reminds me everyday of. Well folks i don't really have a whole lot more to talk about I'm glad however that a certain individual that I used to work with is gone. The clinic is already a quieter place without him. I do miss him in ways though that I will say yea as I said earlier i'm all sorts of confused right now i just wish I had a magic stick to fix everything and make everyone important in my life happy cause i'm never happy so what does it matter anywho. So on that note as the 311 plays I depart to my car to eat me some Mcdonald's.
Doc Eightball outta here