well the date has come.

Well the day I leave is soon approaching as I found out today my b-day to be exact. To where I go no man shall know. I got ask what took so long for me to meet such a wonderful girl. It was heaven just fell into my lap. She doesn't mind that I play video games, she loves me for who I am and how nice I am(yes thats right folks I'm a big teddy bear). All I can say is wow and I can't wait to actually meet you in person. You put a smile on my face even if I don't show it all the time trust me inside I have a grin ear to ear. Well I suppose I don't have a whole lot to talk about. I'm just glad I finally got a launch date I won't be back here till after may sometime. That my friends is an extremely long time. I get to take 30 days of leave as soon as I get back though which is mighty cool cause I really will deserve some leave after this adventure in my life. I got this program from one of the guys that I work with tells you how many days you have until you get out, I'm sitting at 420 days seems like an eternity away but if you think about it it's really not to long in the future. I can't wait to return to civilian life and go get my firefighter cert. Oh on the FF thing she doesn't mind that I want to do that for a job either which is freaking sweet cause she knows how dangerous it is but yet is still supportive of what I want to do with my life which is amazing. Well for now I shall stop prasing what I call my heaven luvs ya and I shall talks to all you folks laters.
Doc A outta here.

BLOG THIS!

hey folks this may very well be one of my last few posts for I depart for Iraq in 8 days for 7 months so I don't know how much of the internet type stuff i'll have access too once i'm out there which I can't tell you guys. But hopefully i'll have a chance every now and then to get on. We shall see blah. Anywho I don't have a whole lot more to talk aboot so I shall depart to the land of the mcdonalds one last time for the night. So until next time I'm out.
Doc A signing off.

well what a weekend

Hmmm what a weekend pretty uneventful other than saturday where I got pretty darn blitzed hadn't done that in a good while. What else I talked to one of my fav people in the world :-) My mom turned a year older yesterday I bought her a reciprocating saw(odd present yes) but that is what the mother wanted so that is what she got. Speaking of b-day's anybody who reads this and has a b-day coming up let me know. I know my b-day is fastly approaching *grumble* another year older and more hair is falling out (22 and already catching my dad who is 55)*grumble* Anywho I don't have a whole lot to post hopefully I have an eventful day at the firehouse had one on friday night so we'll see what today brings hopefully not a late night like friday was but eh who knows well until next the ipod and I are outta here.
Doc A signing off.

my current feelings towards alot of things in life.....

Well this post is a bunch of blink 182 lyrics that kind of describe my feeling towards life,females,military just things in general.

Dysentery Gary
Got a lotta heart ache He's a fuckin' weasel His issues make my mind ache Wanna make a deal. 'Cause I love your little motions You do with your pigtails What a nice creation Worth another night in jail.
He's a player, diarrhea giver Tried to grow his hair out, friends were listening to Slayer I'd like to find him Friday night Hanging out with mom, trying on his father's tights.
Life just sucks, I lost the one I'm giving up, she found someone There's plenty more Girls are such a drag.
So all you little ladies Be sure to choose the right guys You'll come back to me maybe I'll shower you with lies.
Got a lotta heart ache He's a fuckin' weasel Decisions make my mind ache Wanna make a deal
Ease away the problems and the pain The girl chose the guy that makes you wanna kick and scream All along, you wish that she would stay Fuck the guy that took and ran away, yeah
He's a player, diarrhea giver Tried to grow his hair out, friends were listening to Slayer I'd like to find him Friday night Hanging out with mom and trying on his father's tights
Life just sucks, I lost the one I'm giving up, she found someone There's plenty more Girls are such a drag Fuck this place, I lost the warI hate you all, your mom's a whore Where's my dog? 'Cause girls are such a drag.

This next one is I feel so... by boxcar racer.

Sometimes

I wish I was brave

I wish I was stronger

I wish I could feel no pain

I wish I was young

I wish I would try

I wish I was honest

I wish I was you not I

'Cause

I feel so mad

I feel so angry

I feel so callous

So lost, confused again

I feel so cheap

So used, unfaithful

Let's start over

Let's start over

SometimesI wish I was smart

I wish I made cures for

How people are

I wish I had power

I wish I could leave

I wish I could change the world

For you and me

'CauseI feel so mad

I feel so angry

I feel so callous

So lost, confused again

I feel so cheap

So used, unfaithful

Let's start over

Let's start over

'CauseI feel so mad

I feel so angry

I feel so callous

So lost, confused again

I feel so cheap

So used, unfaithful

Let's start over

Let's start over

I feel so mad

I feel so angry

I feel so callous

So lost, confused again

I feel so cheap

So used, unfaithful

Let's start over

Let's start over

This is my my life in general right now. This one is Tiny Voices by boxcar racer.

I've been all pinched up since saturdayI've run my self dry of excellenceSixteen long years in-hale the bullshit inWhatever I said on saturdayWhatever I did I'll do it all againNineteen marks up wallsEach year one short fall ofTiny voices, make things harderEverybody will be let downEverybody will be let downWhat is this for ex-parking lotThe dreamers go buy they never stopTwenty plus 5 in let the youth cave inTiny voices, make things harderEverybody will be let downEverybody will be let downTiny voices make things harderTiny voices make things harderEverybody will be let downEverybody will be let downEverybody will be let down
Everybody will be let down

Well on a happier note I did finally get a relaxing day over here at the firehouse i also found out were going to be losing our new chief that we literally just got so i wonder what there gonna do now? Anywho I get to work here monday so I guess as of right now i'm not leaving on monday like they were telling me I really am starting to think i'm not even gonna go which wouldn't be a bad thing I wanna go home in dec and be a bum for a month cause yea I just want too. What else is going I guess I just felt like puttin some good songs to describe my feelings on alot of things because song does that best for me to anybody out there that would take offense to this I'm sorry just today I don't have a heart...... Oh well for this guy i'm off to go play video games before I crash out for the evening.

Colin a.k.a. 'doc A' is outta here.

P.s. if you don't like what you see yea see that X in the corner click it and you WON'T SEE THIS.

what a day.......

Well my day started off already on a wrong foot woke up late for work boy did that suck i didn't in trouble oh well still start to a bad day. The day just seemed to progressively get worse I went through the day just losing my mind literally i couldn't think at all it sucked. I went to go pick up this new guy were suppose to be getting and of course his plane was delayed yet again so i wasted another day going over there and coming back. I find out that a certain female has feelings for me but ran away cause she was afraid of the pain and fighting and anything else that would happen and that was the homerun hitter to just break me down. I just want to say to that certain female that I still have feelings for ya I just don't know how to show them cause I didn't till just about 45 mins ago know how you felt. I'm sorry if I caused any problems between you and your friend. If you want to talk before I leave please let me know I would be more than willing to hash things out as best as I can. What else is going on well i'm still waiting on this afghan order to come out so I can freaking leave this place is driving me up a wall of bricks and i'm gonna end up killing somebody I swear. Anywho I don't suppose I have a whole more going on so i'll just shut up and crawl back into my little hole people usually call life and bitch and complain some more at a date yet to be determined. Well for now i'm outta here.
Doc A signing off.
P.S. pedro hey shut your freaking mouth i miss the ol' guy because when it came to getting shit done he got it done unlike my current 1st class who only gives a shit about his fellow flips leaves us white and darker skinned guys out to fucking hang. If your a flip i'm sorry i just dispise them sometimes they make me sick anywho I'm out enjoy leave dude.

well stop bitchin really

Well I decided to throw up a new post since certain people decided that they wanted TO BITCH haha about me not having a post on here for a "long time" well lets see here what has happened recently in my life well yesterday my car decided to eat it's fan belt so 4 hours later and a emptier wallet. however on a good note my car is happy now I changed out the radiator fluid as well so i'm sure the radiator is happy. My a/c runs 1100 times better now. What else is going on well I suppose i'm utterly confused about a certain few situations going on in my life right I just wish I could be home in the U.S.A. instead of on this shit hole called okinawa, it's just very hard to resolve certain issues at hand when your so far away and for the I apolgize anywho I tweaked my back again so i'm swearing and looking like i'm 55 today which is not a pleasant feeling as my dad reminds me everyday of. Well folks i don't really have a whole lot more to talk about I'm glad however that a certain individual that I used to work with is gone. The clinic is already a quieter place without him. I do miss him in ways though that I will say yea as I said earlier i'm all sorts of confused right now i just wish I had a magic stick to fix everything and make everyone important in my life happy cause i'm never happy so what does it matter anywho. So on that note as the 311 plays I depart to my car to eat me some Mcdonald's.
Doc Eightball outta here

word bitches

Hey what's going on around these parts eh??? It's gettin FREAKIN hot out here in okinawa japan which I suppose is a nice thing but sucks for us thick blooded northerner's who only know snow and cold. Well suppose I can't complain it's beats iraq that's for damn sure. What else is a goin on in here umm yes still hating my roommate that hasn't changed I'm over sleeping my alarm so not to self make sure you buy a new alarm clock this next paycheck or something along those lines. I need one that would literally wake up the dead or maybe I need to just sneak a cat in here that would wake me up by meowing at me because it was her feeding time. Well i know the cat thing isnt gonna happen so eh what ya gonna do. What else lets see I wish somebody that reads this would fill me in on what is going on around the hockey world. Is there or isn't there going to be a hockey season this year??? I would like to know so i can plan on catching a game whenever it it I do get to go home to good ol ny again. Well folks I suppose for now i'm off to go fight people with my bowstaff cause I have skills in that.
Doc A out

yea....

Well got back from wake island on friday (other than the plane ride) had an excellent time i will say a week off to do nothing really work for a couple of hours and then just chill out for the rest of the time it was FREAKIN AWESOME!!! well on another note as you saw before that I had quit smoking well i'm almost done with the patches so i'm pretty stoked about that cause these things are gettin annoying let me tell you. I gotta go back to work tommorrow which sucks but eh oh well. I have to put this out there because this is my site to rant so if this individual reads it oh well i don't give a fuck. I hate my roommate with a flying passion gettins on my freakin nerves let me tell you I come back from wake and all my food is eaten which I wasn't happy about and he just assumes that he is gonna get a ride to where ever he needs to go and that he can just use my phone whenever the fuck he wants well I got a news flash for ya buddy my niceness is about to smack you in the face and get real ugly real FREAKIN quick!!! Anywho enough about that I suppose I'll get out of here for now I'm glad to be back but at the same time I wish that I was still out there because it was so much easier to deal with no rain and really sunny days a heck of alot easier than this shit hole island people call okinawa.
Well Doc A outta here!

hiddy-ho neighbors

Well hey folks i'm back again and now I have my special someone :-) i'm finally happy first time in about 9 months long time awaited yea much needed stressor out of my life I suppose. Well anywho I found out today that my sandbox order so I don't have to worry about going to down the line. So i'm enjoying the priviledge of being an e-4 now i have still yet to get paided as an e-4 but hey it will all come soon enough. What else is going on summer is around here on the island of okinawa. Were getting all these new mother fuckers here in 1st Stinger battery its quite funny got me a slew of new cd's system of the down(mesmorize),oasis(forget the name),dmb(stand up),coldplay(x&y),mudyane,limp bizkit. Well def enjoying the new tunes relaxing to some cold play right now Well for now I suppose for now i'm out so until next time.
Doc A outta here.

hmm a good note to add

Well friday I got the whole frocking ceramony done which was pretty freakin sweet. I went out that nite and got blitzed out me mind as i usually do on a friday but oh boy did i pay the price remind me never again to mix budweiser E , budweiser,and jack and cokes and 7 jello shots in a row bad outcome such as waking up with a not pleasant headache. But it was all fun hangin out with the guys, as you can see the girl situation over here is way less than favorable. Hmm whatelse is going on well went out to the field for a week yea that was utterly boring all i did was smoke,eat and sleep. OH and on a good note i did quit the smoking thing finally so i'm pretty happy bout that one as well. What else is going on well no word as of yet on weather or not i'm going to the big sandbox I guess I shall find out on tuesday or wednesday eh who knows ya know. Hmmmmmmmmmmmmm well just sitting here listening to some modest mouse killin time before the halo tourney which i hope we win cause there is 125 dollars with my name on it if so WOOT WOOT. umm still wishing i had an awesome girl over here I could go spend my days with and do to whatever her and my heart's desire but here I am alone and bored of this stinkin island. Oh well on that note i'm off like a well something that goes off. POOF
doc A (hm3 type) outta here.

well pretty much set in stone

Well on a great GREAT note today I FINALLY picked up HM3 which i'm freakin happier than you can believe about it only took almost 4 years in the service to finally get that. WOOO HOOO!!!! working on the g/f type situation and course it comes with perfect timing. I'm also pretty much set in stone heading to the "sandbox" next month which i'm not to excited aboot but hey what are you gonna do ya know it's only a 6-9 month order so hey i'll make some money well i'm over there anywho for now i'm out. I'll fill ya all in when i get details.
Doc A signin off.

well bored as usual

Yea it's the 12th of may and here I sit bored out me mind at the firehouse, the land of dead. We never get any calls except for bullshit fire alarms all the other districts get cool calls but not us. OH WELL what are you to do. I'm finally get paided the right amt of money again thank god for that about freakin time ya know I was sick and tired of not getting paided because SOMEBODY screwed up, just need to pay the ol' bills off and put myself on cruise control while i'm here. I'm currently listening to blink 182(not because i'm depressed)(usually my depressing music), just felt like some blink. On another note just got done watching band of brother's excellent mini series Kudos to HBO and steven speilburg/tom hanks for putting that together awesome job. Hmmm what else is going on I can finally see an end nearin to my time in the military as I approach my time next year Sept 18th 2006, D-day for Mr. Arthur I will be a civilian again and sometimes it scares me I don't know why but i've gotten used to a way of life and i'm going to be starting my life all over again, don't get me wrong I want out but i'm wondering how my transition will go. I know it will take time with the things i've seen and all my friends asking questions, I say this unless you've been in mine or my brother's in arms shoes there is nothing I can tell you that will make you truly understand how we function what we do. I don't do the job because I want to be a hero cause quite frankly hero's get killed. I do it for the guy next to me because him and I have shed blood together he has earned the right to be called my brother. To my brother's haines and siv. If you two decide to stay hey good on you both your both excellent sailors/doc's and let nobody tell you otherwise, I do however sincerely hope we keep in touch and get together and chill like old times. I miss hanging out with you guys I in my mind have lost two brothers and there are days I feel lost because I don't have you two around. :-\ Well on that note I suppose I shall sit here and be bored senseless in the firehouse, so until next time remember, i'll be here and remember help is never far away.
Doc A signin off.

hey what's going on

Well it's rather interesting at work these days only two of the worker bees are there which kind of sucks but eh what ya gonna do. What i wouldn't give for one good night's sleep I tell ya this no sleep thing definitely gettin old. I found out that me truck is getting the rents problem so i'll need to go back here in the somewhat near future to fix her up cause I know she just misses her owner which I understand. What else is goin on in the pathetic excuse people call life. Sitting here listening to trapt wondering why i hadn't bought this cd sooner pretty darn good cd I tell ya. what else hmmmm daddy leaves in less than two months (if you don't know who daddy is read some of my previous posts). I know that he's a good guy but sometimes he needs a good beatin with a wet noodle. or as they say in narc, "how bout option 2. you give us the money or we beat you like a baby fuckin seal" (narc is a good game for xbox) Yea definitely been playing that game some and xbox alot kickin ass in halo 2 I am one of the better players in this barracks I will reach out on that one and say that. Well I suppose until next time remember george bush needs to go back to high school to learn how to read and write. (further details later) And I really could use a fresh bottle of yuengling. I do indeed miss that beer MMM MMM GOOD!!!
Well until next time to all my corpsman buddies (remember to say the S lol) hope your doing well out there.
Doc A OUTTA here
LATERZ.
P.S. - Vote for pedro.

Well a little story here and something that US corpsman live by

CorpsmanIn August of 1942,
the first major USMC assault landings against the Japanese Empire occurred in the Solomon Islands, Pacific. The island chosen for the invasion was Guadalcanal.As they moved inland, four Marines were walking point into the jungle. Advancing into an open area without cover, they came under heavy fire from the entrenched Japanese. All four Marines were wounded but managed to crawl into a shell crater, about fifty yards from where they had emerged from the jungle.A Hospital Corpsman ran from cover into the crater with the wounded Marines, and ran back to cover, under fire. Having dressed the wounds of the Marine, he sprinted back for another, only this time he was hit. Not stopping to dress his own wounds, he carried the second Marine to cover receiving a second wound. After giving aid to the Marine, the Corpsman was hit for a third time going into the crater. Staggering toward the treeline with the third Marine, he was again struck by enemy fire.When the third Marine's wounds were dressed, the Corpsman started after the last Marine in the crater. The Corpsman still had not stopped to care for his own wounds. In a final valiant effort, he stumbled toward the crater, where he was brought down by concentrated enemy machine gun fire. He lunged forward into the crater falling across the fourth Marine, finally giving up his life.Reaching up to his own bleeding wounds, the Marine wrote on the back of the Corpsman's bullet riddled shirt,
"WHERE ANGELS AND MARINES FEAR TO TREAD, THERE YOU'LL FIND A CORPSMAN DEAD."
This was that dying Marine's final tribute to his shipmate's supreme sacrifice in fulfilling his oath, "TO AID THE WOUNDED, IN THEIR MOMENT OF NEED."
A Corpsman's Prayer
Grant me, oh Lord, for the coming events;Enough knowledge to cope and some plain common sense.Be at our side on those nightly patrols;And be merciful judging our vulnerable souls.Make my hands steady and as sure as a rock;when the others go down with a wound or in shock.Let me be close, when they bleed in the mud;With a tourniquet handy to save precious blood.Here in the jungle, the enemy near;Even the corpsman can't offer much lightness and cheer.Just help me, oh Lord, to save lives when I can;Because even out there is merit in man.If It's Your will, make casualties light;And don't let any die in the murderous night.These are my friends I'm trying to save;They are frightened at times, but You know they are brave.Let me not fail when they need so much;But to help me serve with a compassionate touch.Lord, I'm no hero -- my job is to heal;And I want You to know Just how helpless I feel.Bring us back safely to camp with dawn;For too many of us are already gone.Lord bless my friends If that's part of your plan;And go with us tonight, when we go out again.
Author Unknown

well hey again

Sitting here on leave bored out me mind which isn't a bad thing cause it's 10 days away from daddy a.k.a. chief three more months and he's gone and we got our new chief which will be pretty bad ass cause he's the type of chief i liked working with at my last command. Listening me to some good ol 311 i love these guys i can never get enough of them. What else is going on in the world of colin well i "should" be getting a visitor here maybe in a month or two it will be good to see her again regardless of what may happen fun will be had by all parties involved. WOOOOO! anywho well i don't gots a whole lot to write about so i'm out for now laters.
Doc A outta here.

well i suppose it can get better

Well shot down again by another chic who i was interested in, I seem to be too good of friends with all the chic's i'm interested in to even have a shot at getting anywhere with them which sucks but i suppose is a good thing too because i have people to hang out with. I'm over here at the firehouse standing duty as I type this right now and boy is it boring I wish that we could get a call or something cause i'm bored out of my freaking mind over here. I'm glad that my sis got her good news hopefully she gets to see her man her real soon. I hope that I will be able to enjoy my leave that is just around the corner and maybe get lucky WHO knows cause i seem to just be walking around sticking my foot in my mouth which sucks but hey such is life sometimes. Oh well less than 24 hours to go of boredom(more than likely) and i'll have a day off OH YES that's right I get to lay around and do absoluetly nothing it will be definitely a great thing I don't have to give smallpox shots I don't have to deal with my chief(who is really pushing getting a swift kick in the ass). I will just mill around and collect dust play video games and watch movies ain't nothing wrong with that so until next remember, no matter how bad life sucks and things get you down there is always a good day somewhere in your future. Life is to short to go about pouting and be unhappy with yourself hey every once in a while is cool. But smile I always try to even if i've had a absolutely shitty day cause hey it's always gonna get worse before it gets better. So keep your stick on the ice.
Doc A outta here
P.S. Siv i haven't forgotten about you i've just been busy so i'm SORRY that the fat kid joke offended you but you a big kid i'm sure you'll get over it. LATERS.

Well hey this is pissin me off now

Hey folks whats good in the hood??? Well i gotta say WHISKEY TANGO FOXTROT OVER!!! on a certain situation in my life right now i wish i could just get the truth instead of this damn game playing that is going on right now, it's closing on april 4th REAL quick like and i still have no answer from you and i would really like one cause i'm getting sick and tired of playing tag with you. Anywho enough of that another week done and over with at work thank god i'm getting a new car i'll post some pictures up here when i get it all taken care of, which reminds me how much of a headache that was just to get the process started to get it taken care of. Anywho what else is going on around here lets see not a whole lot which i suppose is a good thing so umm just livin life counting down the days till i'm done in this hellhole people call okinawa. HMMMMM i'm taking me some leave this month hopefully it will be in ny i'm undecided on weather or not i wanna go home or just stay here so we'll see, i'll make that decision when time comes around. Surprise the parents hehe that would be funny what else is going on. Umm i should be picking up HM3 here in a few weeks whenever the results come out which will be sweet. I'm doing pretty good at this command possibility of me going back to the big sandbox again which i'm not to thrilled aboot but eh what ya gonna do i'm in the navy so i guess i gotta deal with it. Well I suppose I shall write more sometime in the future so until then. I'm out like the fat kid in gym class.
Doc A(eightball) outta here

well then again i appear out of the blue

Hey folks how are things these days i've been pretty busy so i haven't been able to post to much these days but I suppose I shall try to post more frequently. I took my HM3 exam today and i felt that i did pretty good so we shall see here in a few weeks what the results are, I mean jeeze i've only taken it four times now so you would figure that I would pass it on this one with the amount of points I have already before the test is even equated into the system. Well what else is going on the summer is fast approaching here in okinawa and it seems that the weather is not going along with the norm it's I guess pretty cold for here for the past few weeks. I think it's great cause I can wear shorts and sandals and it's no big thing. I'm here alone drinking me some green beer cause you know what day it is, THE GREAT ST. PATRICKS DAY!!!! WOOOOO!!! So yeah i've downed a six pack and feelin pretty good but drunk just a tiny buzz got me a new game today which is hot GT4 for those of you who have no clue what that is, it's Gran turismo 4 which is a sequal to the GT3 which was a sweet game and this one is even better. Well I suppose i'm going to call it a night cause it's been a utterly long day FUCKING CHIEF I HATE YOU!!!! anywho enough of me ranting later folks i'm out like an 80's hairstyle.
Doc A outta here
P.S. Siv I plan on shootin you an email or something here pretty soon once things finally calm themselves down here. I hope things are going good for you bro take it easy.
Haines if your out there somewhere god speed with you I miss ya bro I was looking at some old pics of the three of us Siv,you and myself chilling doing what we do best causing trouble and it def makes me miss the ol hellhole. Later dude.

hey folks

Well I know it's been a good while since i've posted so i figured i would throw something up here for the fellow communists to look at remember MOTHER RUSSIA!!! ... lol anywho there isn't to much going on in my life just chilling working and trying to get my back feeling better cause it's been all sorts of screwed up lately which kind of sucks but hey what are you gonna do except for take meds and try to take it easy on it. Well for now I suppose i'm out so i shall talk to yous all later.
Doc A outta here

well who knows anymore

Well as you may have seen in my last post that I tried to ask a girl out for a date and got SHOT down like a 747. Well on valentine's day this chic had the audasity to come up to me and say i wish i had a valentines I said hey bitch did you forgot the fact that i asked you out on a date and would have been your valentines gladly but oh well what are you going to do you try to be nice to them and they stab you in the eye with a sodering iron i guess she'll get hers in the end. What else is going on in my life these here days well i just dropped 500 bones on the ol car to get it worthy to pass the damn inspection here in okinawa that's awfully expensive i tell ya. Hmm anything else well lets see i haven't been sober for the past 3 days so i suppose i'm tryin to set some record or something we'll see. Anywho I don't have a whole lot to write about so until the next time I decide to get on here and rant about my life I shall talk to you all later and remember it will always get worse before it finally gets better, but it will eventually get better.
Doc A OUTTA HERE